My only love died November 25th of 2018. He and I shared 24 years together. He believed he would survive and had so many good days with a big laugh and smiles. But, only in the 2nd month of it he grabbed my arm and tears wept from his eyes he said" hunni, I'm being executed by cancer" I cryed with him it's not fair! Why can't someone please come out with a cure by now? I miss him so bad I don't know how to go on day to day. I do because I have kids, i do because it's not my turn. I will see you again my sweet, my soulmate.

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Connie,

Just approaching one month past the loss of your beloved and you are weeping.  You are in shock.  You have lost a part of you that was embedded in you.  Cancer is an insidious disease that is heartless.  Anyone can be a target.  Young or old, healthy or not........it takes no prisoners.  I lost my beloved to stage 4 diagnosed the day after Xmas in 2013.  They said four to six months.  He lasted 27 days.

I have lived with the grief up until this very night.  35 years with absolute devotion to each other, no kids.  I can only hope your children will give you more purpose and reason to cope the best you can.  It will be the hardest thing you will eve have to do.  For many people reading that others struggle with the same feelings helps to know you are actually normal for feeling the way you do.   My hope is like yours. that I will see him again.  I must hang onto that belief or I would never have made it this far.  But I am tired so I can also hope that I don't have to wait too long.  At 66 and alone it would be a relief to go.  I know he's not coming back here so going to him would be wonderful.  I surely hope that my belief will be realized......

Girl, (Don't take that wrong), I agree. but mine happened in  such a different way.   My love had health issues, but he didn't pay attention because of my cancer diagnosis. Sooo...I survived, but he didn't.  FUCK cancer!!!!

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