Hi everyone,

I aren't sure if I have posted in the correct section so apologies if it has to be moved.

I wanted to post in case someone is in the same situation as me. My story is that my Mam died end of February this year, I was the only one with her in the care home when she took her last breath. I don't feel I have got over being with her when she died and the feeling that I have no Mam anymore. It has left me feeling very vulnerable regarding my own mortality, does anyone else feel this way? I feel if I still had my parents I wouldn't worry that I am next. I think I have terrible anxiety and depression now that has slowly crept up on me and don't want to feel this way the rest of my life. I visited my Mam and Dads grave today I go every couple of weeks and find it hard to adjust to life that they are beneath the surface and they are gone. Add to that my only child Daughter gaining employing near London the week before Mam died. I miss my daughter so much and when I visit it her like this weekend seem to feel so depressed when I come back home. I feel my purpose as Mam myself and a Daughter to my Mam has all gone and there's not much left. My Daughter is very good she texts, skypes and visits a lot and we visit her but she has her own life and I do know that but the loss is hard to get used to.

I suppose I just wanted someone to chat to my inner voice just tells me I'm worthless, useless and a waste of space I don't know why these feelings have come but they have.

Thanks for reading,

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Sorry for your loss. I lost my 18 year old son a couple of months ago, and I will have an empty nest when my youngest leaves for college next year. Loss and change is very hard, but your daughter still needs you. You are loved and valued.

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