God

Before Mom passed away I never really had a reason to think much about what happens after death or if there is a God. I was raised a catholic, but haven't been to church in years. I pray to God every day since Mom passed.

Now, the thing is that I'm not sure whether there's a God out there or not. Or if there is something more than life in this Earth. I do feel Mom, or have felt her a couple of times. But that could be me fooling myself. I can't be sure.

Even if there wasn't a place like Heaven, life would still be beautiful, since it brought Mom and me together, we come from millions of ancestors who lived through millions of years. Any little thing could have gone wrong in the chain of events and lives that lead to us and we wouldn't have existed.

Still, I would welcome the idea of something beyond this life and this body. I would love to see Mom again... the idea of spending the rest of my life away from her, is painful. I know the number of years I may still get to live, is nothing compared to eternity, what came before me and what will come after me. But it seems very, very long when I don't know where she is.

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Comment by Maria on July 11, 2013 at 2:49pm

Although my son just died a month and one day ago, I feel like I must share. My son died instantly after being thrown from his motorcycle. I am a Christian. He spent the late part of his adult life as an atheist. The night he died, before everything got bad with his funeral and my family, I had a dream. I looked for him in heaven and he came to me suddenly and said, "I was wrong mom" (about heaven and God). It gave me the most comfort and I know eventually my heart would grieve about where he went. He was with his father and they looked so happy. Life is all about our choices.. We get to live the life that we want to... believing in the Lord or not. The end is the Lord's. Please believe so that you can not only see your mom again, but for the comfort that the Lord provides to us as times like these

 

Comment by Dana on July 6, 2013 at 8:23am

There is a creator of all this as the world didn't just "happen".  Whether people name the creator "God" or whatever.  I don't believe in coincidences and believe in purpose. None of us while on earth will ever know the answer until we die.  I do believe spirit lives on.  Physical and spirit is what makes us.  I do not believe I will never see my mom again.  I feel bad she is watching me suffer and wish I could be stronger but the pain is too much.  The great thing is time passes so very fast and soon we will be with our loved ones on the other side.

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