31 days and counting. Can't say his name without crying, can't talk about the death without crying, can't think about him without crying, can't write this without crying. I want it to stop.

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Comment by Kathleen Jordan on June 20, 2019 at 11:22pm

Even though dream moon can't do grammar, I agree. It doesn't stop...it will hit at moments out of the clear blue....4 years, 9 years or 20.  It is a loss, and it's real.

Comment by dream moon JO B on April 12, 2019 at 5:49pm

it can go on/off for yrs it can 

do not t not let no 1 tell u way u shud feal or mkee u feal baf bad for grieff or los loss 

lst 7 yrs iv go thruu a multii loss of pepplee 

evn a cat i had for 16/17 yrss i loss 2 

peplee say or sh wz only a cat but my cat she got me thruu sum dark bits in lifee  till 2016 i had to get he t pts

wen dad died loss seamd 2 be lk a rolcostr of pepplee died it did it did it did it did 

thn lucy died my fur kid it got me 

iv bean on hear sisne 2012 we all on hear coz of loss frm a humen 2 a pet or so on or mulitii loss

no 1 gets it till thy hav had a loss

sorry if im sayin  wong thngss i am 

sorry on yotre loss 2

Comment by Joe Kelly on April 7, 2019 at 7:42pm

Anna Marie,

The pain of losing one we loved is unbearable.  I'm sorry you are here, and I agree with everything Morgan said.  I lost my lifelong love 15 months ago and still cry everyday.  There is no timeline for grief.  Join a group here that's related to the loss.  We try to comfort one another by sharing our grief. Sorry for your loss, Joe   

Comment by morgan on April 7, 2019 at 2:47pm

Anna Marie, 
I can only tell you that here on this site you are amongst a group of people who know exactly what you are going through and we are all so sorry you have to be here.  I have only one decent suggestion and that is take baby steps and don't think very far ahead.  And crying is one of the coping methods that many of us involuntarily do that helps release the trauma.  Your body knows of no other way to deal with this crushing blow.  It HAS to cry.  
I can try to be comforting by saying you are at the very early raw stage and this is to be expected. And it is.  Most people from the outside think the memories are what sustain you.  What I think is that the memories are killing me.  I want all of those memories to be the present, but they aren't.  They are the past. Many of us are trying to find ways to move the mountain.  But the mountain remains.  I wish I could give you something to ease the pain but you will find this will be the hardest thing you will ever do.  
Take it an hour at a time and if you cant do that then take it a minute at a time.  You will find sometimes that will be all you can do. If you get some sleep, or get some food, or get a shower or brush your teeth consider it a victory.  
I wish there was anything more I could do or say.  I wish there was anything I could do after six plus years of being in the same situation myself.  I can tell you I have slowly been able to function better but it has taken years, but the emotions are still hair trigger.
Come here and read and write, I find it helps.  We know.  We all know and wish each other the best thing we can do at every moment.  Take care the best you can.

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