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Comment by Katherine Ellis on May 13, 2009 at 3:18pm

Gail~ one day I am fine. The next it is hour by hour. I hate this roller coaster of emotions. I just want her here so I can touch her, hug her, hold her. Say one last 'I love you". I believe that someday we will meet on the other side but that seems so far away. I'm disappointed in myself becasue I should be farther along in my grief than this (or so people tell me). I feel pulled in so many directions. I want to cry but the tears won't come. Today I feel emotionless. Nothing but depressed. I dont want to be me. When will I smile again? Laugh again? Ever be happy. If Irene was here she would be so disappointed in me.

Comment by Gail Richardson on May 13, 2009 at 3:05pm

Katherine - my thoughts are with you as Irene's birthday draws close once more. I'm still not sure how we are supposed to feel on these days and it's been my experience that every year is different - some better, some worse. Guess we just have to take it as it comes and at least know that we will get through the other side.
My daughters Angel date and birthday are within two days of each other next month. I'm already beginning to feel that gnawing in the pit of my stomach as I get ready for the roller coaster of emotions I know I'm going to go through.

The only thing that keeps me going in these times is the support of my friends - my bereaved Mum and Dad friends that have become like a family to me.
We'll be there for you too - you only have to call.
Take care and God bless
Gail