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Greig is bad enough now its impossible to get help thanks obam

I lost my mom over a year. I cry every day. I keep hearing the doctor's words I was going to kill her if I did not place her on life support. I keep thinking of the promises I broke..,,,she died alone..,,in a hospital....people praying over her.



Lol thanks to Obama care does not cover depression. Lol I would have to be suicidal or an addict to get help.



With all this now happening I can not even have my mothers ashes. A day after she passed I followed her wish....to donate… Continue

Added by Betty Ellsworth on January 25, 2017 at 12:05pm — No Comments

Almost a year

My mom was my only family its been almost a year since left. Every nite I cry. Every nite I look for a sign she has forgiven. If she can not forgive me then how do forgive myself. I promised her she would die in a hospital, and she did want people pray over her, she died in the arms of strangers..,,praying strangers.I keep hearing the words of doctor..,,,,you are tying my hands...her only hope is being put on life support. I did not listen. I showed him the den. He told me I would murdering her… Continue

Added by Betty Ellsworth on December 22, 2016 at 3:06am — No Comments

the pain and guilt never ends.

I lost my mom 7 months ago she was my only family member.  I have been her care giver for nearly 10 years  She battle COPD, Congestive heart failure, renal failure and diabetic.  In December 2014 her heart doctor informed me she had a year to live.   I thought he was crazy.  Her primary doctor did not agree.   She came home in March of 2015 after recoverying from heart surgery.   I notice an increase of things she was unable to do.  Her mental alertness and memory was gone.  She had lost…

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Added by Betty Ellsworth on August 11, 2016 at 5:48am — No Comments

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