My step dad was brutally tortured and slaughtered on June 17th. It came as such a horrible shock he was super close to the man that murdered him and had been temporarily staying there while my mom stayed elsewhere and they worked on finding a place together. The morning of June 17th my mom was due to pick him up and move his stuff out of that "friend's" place and they were going to move everything to a new house they'd found, 8:36AM is the very last time anyone ever spoke to him again he was estatic about the new place and him and my autistic son had a very special bond so he asked if he could see my son that day as well, he never got to see my baby again. At 10:15 my step dad fell asleep in his favorite chair waiting by the door with his boxes and bags packed for my mom to show up when that useless waste of oxygen began to repeatedly stab him in the head and slit his throat, my step dad got away ran 40 feet where he died with the neighbor confirming him. The useless waste of oxygen then proceeded to lie and say he did it because my step dad refused to leave after he tried to kick him out which the investigators clearly seen he was packed and ready to book it so obviously a balant lie (surprising). We love him and miss him so much I've never dealt with loss much less anything like this and I'm losing my mind I don't know how to handle this or love with this and that disgusting pig had the nerve to look me right in the eye during trial with nothing but smugness! My step dad didn't deserve it he did nothing wrong that pig murdered him for fun and admitted he'd planned it out.
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