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Comment by rachel_micele on November 25, 2015 at 7:03pm

I hear you Hilary. I too just want the busy stream to pass me by. Good way to put it. I really don't give a shit. My mom is taking it hard I won't be at the family festivity but that's how it needs to be. I love her but she'll get over it.

We're all here for you Mel. Lean on us.

Comment by Hilary Christene on November 25, 2015 at 4:25pm

It's a long stretch. I don't have work or any plans.

It's going to be an ugly four days for me. People are asking me are you going somewhere, are you doing something, and so I am opting for lying and saying "oh, yes, family, food, fun, friends, absolutely," just to shut them up. Jesus.

So I am going to take it one bitter, anguished breath at a time. It would be worse, I know, if there were people to deal with. So I am lucky that I don't have family or any friends to be with. The way that they go on in life, when mine has stopped, makes me feel like screaming. I unfacebooked most of my people yesterday - seeing posts and the likes and the interests ... it's like a busy stream and I want it to pass me by.