today july 28 at 4 in the morning  for the first time in almost 9 months, I heard my son,  as clear as if he were standing here he called me  MOM  I had been up since 1 a m I just could not sleep,  I went out front to sit on the veranda, it was raining hard and I just talked to shawn, begging him to talk to me in my dreams and crying hard.  my pills were not working but by 4 they started, I went back to bed and just started to drift when I heard him  say   MOM. I wanted so bad to  go with him, within mins I was asleep. I knew it was him his voice, to hear  MOM  after so long, all I could do today was thank him and cry. when I went to see him today I broke down bad like I do everyday.  I told him now I can hear you so please come tell me you are with mom and happy, I need this so bad. to know he loves me.  ill cherish  shawn forever, how I miss him and love him so much.  I know hes here  I know it,   love you shawn forever,  mom 

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Comment by Connie K on July 28, 2014 at 11:28pm

Yes Kim, I believe he was there and will always be there when you call for him. When in our deepest and most vulnerable state , we lose our ego long enough to hear and feel them. Your prayers were answered. It is true. It is hard to live with and hard to believe but we can have a relationship with our children in their "new" form - if we believe in the love between us that is so real and will never die. Your son came to let you know that he loves you and forever will.

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