So..... I was always interested in the spiritual realm... kind of obsessed with it actually.  However, I never knew 100% sure if it's possible.  I told my father in his last days while he was resting... not completely asleep that he better contact me and my daughter after he is in heaven to let us know he's okay and contact us in some way... via electricity or however! 

A week after my dad's passing I was having a really rough time.  I was headed to my mom's to drop my daughter off.  It was 10/18/11, he passed on 10/11/11.  I was sitting in the kitchen before I had to leave and all the sudden there was this bright, bright light that lit up the entire kitchen and immediately went dark.  I saw where it came from.  However my human brain tried ot find some sort of logic to it.  the light came from the corner of the kitchen where my dad always leaned against the counter and drank his coffee.  But in my head, I tried to rationalize it was from a plug-in, in the wall.  My mom tried to say it was one of the LED lights on the ceiling that was closest to that spot but clear up to the ceiling.  I saw the actual flash and it was not any of that.  There was no burnt wiring, no pops or noises, no smoking, no...nothing. 

Today was 2 weeks, one day after his passing.  I was complaining to my mom tonight how my 1 set of neighbors always take out the garbage for the other neighbor and neither neighbor does anything to help me.  Today was garbage day.  I also had a rough day about dad.  I cried on and off most of the day.  I started to pull in my driveway and my garbage can was not out on the road... however both of my neighbors cans were... which means they hadn't brought in their cans.  I pull slowly into my driveway and their is my can, in it's spot where I put it, a little crooked, but in the in the spot where I put it.  I'm a little weirded out and search my porch for a note on the door or some old garden tools of an ex boyfriend to be gone if he had shown up.  I called my ex husband and the ex boyfriend.  Neither of them had been here.  I'm still skeptical at this point. 

So the next thing I notice is that my dad's obituary that had been sitting on my dining table is slightly turned... like someone was reading it.  Then I open my fridge and find that 4 beers that were there this morning are completely gone... disappeared.  My dad would have frowned on this because alcoholism ran in his family and was always a concern. 

I start checking EVERYTHING... to see if I have anything stolen or moved.  Nothing else is taken or moved.  Then my 5 yr old daughter hollers from the couch, "mom, why did you put my horses in there?".  When I figured out what she was talking about, I realized that two of her toy horses had been placed on the top glass shelf of my grandmother's curio cabinet.  (my dad's mother).  It's 5 ft high and there's no way she could have put those in there... plus, I haven't seen these two toy horses in a long time. 

Then on top of this, my dog was acting sad and sullen all night.  She is always happy and wants to be with us.  She stayed in the bedroom, sullen, ALL night long. 
I know this was my dad... I'm just in shock still. 

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Comment by sara kephart on November 16, 2011 at 4:45pm

wow...thats an amazing story when my dad past i saw him first and he came to me in a dream its been alittle under 3 months since he has gone but still feels like yesterday,i miss him dearly and im sorry for your loss i understand and knw that pain and heartache you must feel and it is a very difficult thing to go thru i still am going thru it and will for ever i was daddys little girl and i miss him more today then before he died:(i have 2 little girls who miss their papa and i  feel helpless and overwhelmed at times with everything i am only 21 yrs old i didnt knw i would have to say goodbye so soon:(

Comment by Brandi Bangs on November 11, 2011 at 12:56am

Thank you Michael. I know they can't!  lol. 

Peace to you as well,

Brandi

Comment by MIchael A Ballard on November 11, 2011 at 12:47am

Brandi,

They can't fool us!

That's what I say to my wife Jami, 'You can't fool me, I know you're still around!"

Peace,

Michael

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