I am a single mother of two wonderful children. I work in the medical field. I feel very blessed with what God provides for me and the continuous direction and forgiveness. Also have everything I need in life and enjoy simple living. I am honest, genuine, loyal, and understanding of others circumstances I am very intelligent which is why I have been able to consciously intentionally block out grieving the loss of my sister and it is something I am ready to deal with. I am looking for others who have had similar losses to share and support each other in this traumatic process. I am not typical as far as the norm in many ways very open minded and usually have blocked out or not allowed many unfortunate traumatic experiences in my life for it is easier but I know I can no longer keep doing this for many reasons and my response is a great coping mechanism but this time I have to resolve my accepting my sister being gone as it is going to plague me the most for life mostly because it's not a loss that I can recover or fix and get her back on Earth so hope this helps understand me better and what loss I need to grieve"
About my Loss:
My sister passed away abruptly in June 2015.
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I have noticed lately that i am having dreams with re-occuring teams.
my wife leaving (though some circumstance) and having greater responsibilities to look after others..
are other experiencing dreams with constant team's ?
"Joe: I'm with you on the signs. I was positive my husband would send me signs. I've read many books where people say it happens. It's not a bird or a butterfly, but they actual see and hear their loved…"
"Geraldine, it'll be five months on Thursday that my Darling died in my arms. I know she loved me with all her heart and if she could she would send me a sign. I'm convinced that she can't. I just hope that she can…"
"Connie, I hope your mom is okay. I know how hard it is when another family member is ill.Our son's birthday was last Thursday (June 14). The 8th without him. And on Friday the 15th, my only sibling, my brother passed. …"
"B. Windsor, I am so happy for you that you finally were able to see and visit with your grandson. I hope it brought you some peace and happiness, and I hope you will be able to have a good relationship with him."
"Hello. Where has everyone gone? I don't ever remember it being so quiet here. I would like to think that is a good sign, but fearful that the newbies are being ignored.This place was a place of comfort and understanding when I…"
"I haven't posted in awhile. May 26 was the 7 year date of my sons death and June 2 would have been his 23rd birthday, Gabriel was kind thoughtful and a pure joy to everyone he met. this life and the grieving have been very cyclical and when I…"
"Great words Bluebell.
I did not even leave my job as you and Virginia did so I have more reasons to feel guilty. I did not even tall to her enough before her illness.
But as Bluebell said guilt has life of its own. "
"Its been a long long road since the day my husband died. I cannot lie. This is not getting any easier. Instead of being in such a fog about what to do next I have more clarity as to what things are going to be like and I dont like…"
""I quit my job and had the most important job, to take care of her. She gave me life and took care of me my whole life, only for me to fail her when she needed me. But what do I do with this guilt? How do I punish…"
"Virginia, I never, ever want to give anyone the impression that I did everything right. And I got way too much praise through mom's illness and after her death. I knew better. They were right about one thing. I sure loved my mom. I could have…"