I lost the love of my life on April 23rd to an accidental overdose. Him and I had been close friends for over 20 years since we were 15 years old. We always knew we loved each other but never made anything of it until 6 years ago once we were a little more grown up and ready to spend the rest of our lives together. We were ecstatic to be together, we knew we were made for each other, we are true soulmates through and through. Our life was just us together all the time. A few years ago he started working 2 provinces away and still even when he was gone for work, we'd spend any free moment we had on the phone together. We were best friends, he was my only true friend, he was the only one who has ever or will ever know me through and through. He died alone where he was staying for work and it breaks my heart to pieces. We bought a hobby farm and have 6 animals (2dogs,2goats,2cats). His family who doesn't live in this province turned their backs on me when I resisted their request that i sell the house and split the money between me,his brother, his sister and mother...all who never put a cent or ounce of energy into this place, let alone even come to visit us. They sent me many nasty texts to which I replied back kindly. Then they had a memorial for my husband and publicly uninvited me but invited all of his ex-girlfriends....it was pretty trashy and my husband deserved so much more...he was an amazing man and was so protective of me, he would've been so upset. The family disrupted my grief process and I sit alone on the farm with the animals crying everyday. I miss him so much, I always think about letting the animals live out their lives then suicide. I dont want to be away from him, i just need to talk to him. People call me from time to time but I dont want to talk to anyone but my husband....he was my whole world. I have never felt so alone and like no one on this planet understands me. We are only 35 years old, we were trying to have a baby, we waited our whole lives to be together. It is hard when you cant find any other young widows who lost their soulmate.
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