I just lost my dear Grandma in June,2011. So I just experienced the first Thanksgiving without my dear Grandma (was so hard not to pick up the phone to call her and wish her a happy Thanksgiving). As the Holiday season approaches its going to be bumps in my road. The first Christmas, My Birthday in Jan, My Grandma's Birthday in April, and Her death date in June. I have also noticed that not only do I have difficulties on specific anniversary dates but the actually day of the month I find myself severely depressed. She passed on the 20th of the month.

I miss my dear Grandma she was my rock so hard for me to get used to not calling her, I used to just be able to pick up the phone and call her. Now that she is gone from this earthly life its so hard at times I just want to say Why? Why now Lord? I know she does not want me to be sad about her passing however when you love someone as much as I loved my grandma. She helped raise me so now I feel like an orphan.

 

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I feel your pain. This was my first thanksgiving with out my grandma too. She passed in July 2011. Of a massive heart attack out of the blue. My whole life I've spent every thanksgiving and Christmas with my grandma at her house. So this was a hard one. I'm sorry for your lose, just know your not in this alone

My beloved Grandma's birthday is April 29th. This is the first year that she is not here with me. I miss my Grandma so very much. I am going to go out on her birthday to celebrate her life. I can not believe that it has almost been a year since she has passed away. June is just around the corner and let me tell you it has been a long but quick year. She didnt like celebrating her birthday but I always sent her a card and told her happy birthday anyway. I loved my Grandma so very much. She is grately missed and that is why my profile pic is my beloved Grandma. She was my rock and I have a tatoo in her honor that I charish with grate pride and dignity.

It has almost been a year since my beloved Grandma passed away man how time flies. I made it through her birthday in April. A few days before I got depressed and on her birthday I did too. I just reciently had some vivid flashbacks of her funeral I am guessing that is because we are comming up on the year since her passing. I just hope that these next few days are as easy as they could be and that I look back at this year and say wow I have come a long ways. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and when you loose someone that you are close to its hard to let go. I am almost to the letting go stage holding on is not doing me any good soon I will let go to this pain because to keep holding on to it is causing me more pain and not comfort.

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