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He's only been gone for 3 weeks but it feels like a lifetime ago
Im new here and Im hoping to find some comfort with all of you.
My Dad passed away on May 24,2013.
We were told his cancer had returned on 12/26/13 & the Dr's gave him 6 months.
He fought up until the very end, so very typical of my father.
He was my rock - my world was safe because he was in it.
Yesterday was my first Father's Day without him & yes, it hurt. But the last 3 weeks have hurt so badly it was almost like every day since he's been gone.
I miss him more then words could ever fully express.
When I was 15 my parents divorced. At 16 I became pregnant & my mother decided to move to NC with her boyfriend.
My poor Dad was stuck with a 16 year old pregnant daughter & he loved my daughter & I more then anything in this world.
Watching him suffer the last few days of his life was torture. It physically hurt my heart to see a man who I loved so much suffer.
On May 16,2014 I wrote a letter to God asking him to please end his suffering.
Thankfully he was aware & alert before he left us.
In fact, the Friday before he died ( he died the next day), he told me "Ill be gone in 24 hours and he was.
But I got to tell him I loved him & I have absolutley NO regrets. I spent a lot of time with him. He was a part of my every day life.
Now here I am, just a little over 3 weeks and I havent seen nor spoken to him.
I think it's starting to set in that he is really gone.
Im grateful for all the memories we shared, all the wisdom he taught me & for the bond that we shared.
As I said in his eulogy, nothing, not even cancer can steal our memories. And I am so lucky to have enough memories to last me a lifetime.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
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Permalink Reply by Debra A. Whitemaine on
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Elizabeth I am so sorry for your loss. My father passed in Sept. 2012 and last year was my first father's day without him. It was very hard and hurt just like you said. I was so emotional leading up to the day. This year was a little better. I have also experienced an emotional and crying spell when I felt like I it happened all over again. I find comfort in honoring him, talking to him and going to visit him. Just do what feels right to you. The memories are wonderful and do help to get thru the hard times. Like you, my dad taught us many things and when I do them now I think of him. My thoughts and prayers for you, take care.
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Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on
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im so sorryfor yore loss elizabeth my dad died in 2012 3.3 we still exspect him 2 play pranks on us i supose his i no he wz creamated but it t i feal lk his playng pranks on us
i no day he died it did not sink in i kpt on thng it wz a bad mistak
evn wm funrel directer cm 2 hpuse it did not feal real deap in my heat i no it will never feal real
i kissed gdby in funrell hme 2 tms i no lst tm wz day bfre his funrell i had 2 sea him kiss gdby on his fore hed i did
debra is rht our dads tort us stuff probly beter thn skool teachers
he use 2 t6k me on bumer cars at themee park
he otrt me sm funny pranks or jkes he wz sush a fuuny man le luved all moren gagdddsets he oid he probly wud hav lernt it fastr thn me
he wud read a intrsrun manrell frm strt 2 fish me i get stuk on 1st pag i do thn giv up our dads never giv up thy didnt
i no sm days r ok but othr days lk fathers daywz hrd it wz
sorry for yore looses
my dad tort me how 2 rid a bike on 2 reals how 2 use swings in park
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