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I am new to this website so not sure how to use :-( Widowed for 1 1/2 years after 40 years of marriage. Looking for relief from the loneliness!!
Dear Jade, so sorry to hear of your loss. My beloved husband died two years ago, after more than three decades together, so I feel like I know something about the loneliness -- although, in my case,since the bereavement I partly want to be alone, which is kind of confusing, being lonely yet wanting to withdraw from contact. I do think that helping others, when one is ready emotionally for that, can dispel loneliness to some extent. Have also found that reading some of the posts here is comforting in terms of seeing that our feelings and experiences of grief are not manifestations of madness, that other people feel the same things. Hope you are finding some consolation as time goes by.
I understand the wanting to be alone; it's much the same for me. I believe it's because the one person I truly want to be with, my beloved husband, is not here. If I can't be with him, I don't want to be with anyone.
When he died, and for at least 6 months afterwards, I couldn't stand to have anyone other than my sister touch me at all. I don't know why her...she and I are very close, but I'm close to our parents too. Maybe because she also knows him well, I'm not sure. I still hate for anyone to touch me, even my parents, but I can tolerate it for a few seconds.
I hope you are able to find some peace. I cannot offer any, as I haven't found any, but I hope you can.
I'm sorry to hear about your loss.