"I hold back from seeking death, as well...I still need to set an example for some people in my life. I also feel that maybe taking your own life might somehow then inhibit being able to connect with him, like maybe be in a different…"
I feel bad about your anniversary. It really hit me hard to read your words about how you cried that hard. I can't come up with anything to say, but I get it.
I am at 6 1/2 years. 6 1/2 lost years. "
"I am not Jeff, but I think I can answer as well, since yes: Those were things I experienced.
I have cried so hard that I got sick and would almost vomit. I have thought of many things that would be so nice if they claimed my life at that moment.