Michael died on September 23, 2012 - almost 7 weeks. How many times did we talk about the "what ifs"? Plenty, just in August we had a long discussion about Heaven. He was skeptical though he was raised Catholic. He wanted to know how I could believe without doubt or fear. I told him because I had no choice but to believe and that if I was wrong - well then I'd never know.

 

Being as terrified as he was of death I believe that he got a message to me letting me know he is alright. Michael always said to me, "life can change on a dime." And since his passing I have been find dimes in all sorts of places. The first one came while we were all in the waiting room. He was in surgery fighting for his life and there on the floor in front of me was a dime. Then his daughter found she was sitting on a dime. Someone else found one resting on their laptop. Not till the next day after he passed did I remember what he said.

 

I continued the first few weeks finding dimes and have a glass jar where I am collecting  them next to our picture. Maybe some people think I have gone crazy - and you know most days I do feel that way - one step close to crazy is the way I describe the feeling.

 

 

 

 

Views: 88

Replies to This Discussion

Hi Lee,

I am sorry for your loss.  I think it is neat the you are finding dimes and have a jar to collect them in.  A sure sign Michael is watching over you.

 

My father passed due to complications from surgery on September 21, 2012.  Like you and Michael, my Dad and I had a conversation about God and believing in "everything happens for a reason".  I am so glad that we had that talk. 

 

Keep up your faith and doing what you feel is right.  No matter what anyone else thinks.

Last week I was really upset with Michael. Everything is just falling apart all around me and I was angry. I was yelling at him for leaving me all alone. Yelling for leaving me with all the mess. Yelling at him that maybe he just didn't love me after all.


I told him to stop leaving me dimes. Just stop! So last week I didn't get any dimes - but other people would call me or text me how they were finding dimes! Fine! I didn't want any anyway!

 

This morning while in church sitting all the way in the back alone I looked down there on the floor in front of me was a shiny new dime. He never did listen to me.

RSS

Latest Activity

James D. Thornsberry and Natasha are now friends
yesterday
James D. Thornsberry posted a photo

Jim

Life at Online Grief Support
yesterday
Jennifer replied to Robin H's discussion Lost my Partner who wasn't my partner in the group Being the Other Woman/Other Man
"Welcome to the group.  I lost my partner on February 5th this year, so it's still pretty raw for me too.  Reading through your story really touched a chord with me.  Like you, I didn't think I would ever find a group like…"
May 1
Jennifer joined Cathy Richardson's group
Thumbnail

Being the Other Woman/Other Man

This is for anyone who has lost their lover to death and you were the other woman/other man in their life. We have to grieve in silence. I can't find any support groups and feel like I'm the only one going through this situationSee More
May 1
Jennifer and William Gardener are now friends
May 1
dream moon JO B commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"i miss mom so mush i do"
Apr 11
Susan E Marshall commented on Susan E Marshall's photo
Thumbnail

My husband

"Thanks, Rosie. (I have memory problems and forgot about this site. I'm just seeing this now. April 6th)"
Apr 6
Natasha updated their profile
Apr 5

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service