My big brother died today and the world seems bigger and scarier tonight.

My dad died when I was 9 and my big brother was 18, 6foot 6, and strong as an ox.  I never knew life without him in it.  And now he is gone.  Not sure how much more of this I can take.

 

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Comment by Cynthia StGermain on June 2, 2013 at 10:59pm

i realized just the other Day Iam a only Child ,at least ill carry my brother in my heart with all the crazy memories we had ..

Comment by anna l. on June 1, 2013 at 10:20pm

Thank you Cynthia, JB and Gina.  I have been a member here for a long time.  Losing my brother this way has just brought all the old hurts back to the surface.  He died in hospice care in the same care facility as my son used to go to for respite care if his wife was ill, and where my husband died from cancer nearly 2 years ago.  My brothers final days mirrored my husbands in so many ways. And  I walked into his room one day and instead of seeing my brother I saw my dad the way he looked the last time I saw him, ravaged by cancer 3 days before he died.  My sisters confirmed my memory was correct.  I just feel overwhelmed with loss, grief, and such a profound sadness it is hard to move.  Back to one minute at a time.  One calming breath at a time

Comment by Gina Stone on June 1, 2013 at 9:39pm

I am so sorry, please feel free to talk with any of us at anytime

Comment by dream moon JO B on June 1, 2013 at 3:24pm

sory abot yore loss anna 

Comment by Cynthia StGermain on June 1, 2013 at 2:58am

i total understand my brother was my hero i adored hime ,and one min he was her the next gone. it's hard but you got to rember the good memories that what helped me the past year and knowing he'ld kick my ass if i wasnt taking care of his nephew and neics's ....

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