Penny Caywood's Blog (9)

A Gr-r-r-eat Post ;)

In 2018, (one week before Easter), Jeremy took me to a small town outside of Austin called, Brady, Texas. The reason for this trip? Seeing Mamma Beth (daddy's sister; my aunt) for the first time in 34 years. She'd asked me to help her heal a weird infection below her belt, and under her belly where she couldn't reach to take care of it herself.

The moment we saw each other, I went into her arms, and she held me for 5 minutes before Jeremy and I even walked through the apartment door.…

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Added by Penny Caywood on August 27, 2022 at 12:30am — No Comments

There's an Explanation for That

I know that when you look at the things I’ve posted here that, there are not many posts about Jeremy or any of the other five loved ones I lost in that 2 year period of time. There’s an explanation for that, and I’m going to let y’all know what’s going on with that.

Growing up, my parents did not tell me certain things about life, for example, Jeremy had to explain to me how to know when my bowels were finished moving, but that should’ve come from my…

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Added by Penny Caywood on August 26, 2022 at 8:11pm — No Comments

Heard It Said

In my lifetime, I've heard it said that, "A person doesn't love you if they only say, 'I love you' when you're having sex.

Now, my question is:

Why is that?

Added by Penny Caywood on August 26, 2022 at 5:02pm — No Comments

Two Years Later

Technically speaking, there are less than 3 months left until we've been together for 2 years, and it's sad to see the changes that have been made. The one that upsets me the most? The situation with your dog. When I first got to your apartment, you could not stand that Chihuahua, Gigi. Now, she gets an 'Good morning' from you, she gets a kiss on her head from you, and you tell her, 'I love you, my pupper-dog'. You treat the dog better than your own girlfriend.

Added by Penny Caywood on August 25, 2022 at 2:13am — No Comments

I'd Like to Know

Jeremy and I are soulmates, no matter if he's living or waiting for me in the afterlife, I have no doubts about that, but I'd like to know is: Will our souls know each other once mine has moved onto the afterlife? I know that everyone has different beliefs on many different aspects of life, but for the most part, when it comes to the subject of 'soulmates' I've found that most everyone I've met, feels the same way about the topic. What do you believe? How do you think soulmates who have…

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Added by Penny Caywood on August 18, 2022 at 4:17pm — No Comments

Starting Groups Here

If someone could tell me about starting groups here, I'd greatly appreciate it because I want to create one, myself.

Added by Penny Caywood on August 16, 2022 at 11:53am — 1 Comment

Link to My Stories on Wikacy

Joe,

I was told to copy the address from the browser while on my profile page on Wikacy, and you'd be able to find tabs that will lead you to my stories. I hope this works, please, check out the link below, and let me know if you were able to use it. Thanks in advance.

https://wikacy.com/members/iozegxuuu3bj5vm77cih4stkwbh2/profile/

Added by Penny Caywood on August 13, 2022 at 3:53am — No Comments

As Time Goes By...

This coming Friday, August 5, 2022, I'll be turning yet another year older (44), and you would think that, as time goes by living without you by my side, would get easier; however, it hasn't gotten any easier for me, at all. I miss you, Jeremy James, with every single day that goes by.

The entire first year after you passed, all I wanted to do was die, but I'm still here without…

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Added by Penny Caywood on August 2, 2022 at 12:43pm — 17 Comments

Hello

Hello, my name is Penny Caywood, but call me Pennywyze, please. The reason I've sought out support online for my grieving is because I've literally got no one to talk with about the things I'm going through. I mean, I've got a boyfriend, Steven who lost his wife 2 days after Jeremy's benefit in 2019, but I don't dare talk about my soulmate and best friend to my old man. However, he has been repeating the same stories from his past for the last 18 months since we've been together,…

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Added by Penny Caywood on June 15, 2022 at 4:13pm — No Comments

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