Recently in August I lost my boyfriend of 3years.Although this is not the first loss I've delt with its the first one I'm dealing with sober. I losses my mother,brother,nephew & baby's father. But all that grief I got through or buried with alcohol. My boyfriend that passed away actually helped me with leaving alcohol alone. He did do much for me internally I would tell him you changed me in ways that I will forever be grateful for. The day he was murdered on. aAug 6 2017,I spoken to him earlier that day. We were planning for me to go see him in Sept. He had sent me out to nc to get a job and place. We weren't use to us not being together. From the day we met, you see him, you see me. Anyway he was looking forward to that because the last few weeks were kind of stressing him. He had went to a family function at a park. When a man rode up and started arguing with his girl. My dude being him told the man to go argue with his girlfriend somewhere else. There's kids here and it was a family function. They get into a heated argument and dude pulls a gun on my boyfriend and shoots him. My boyfriend died at the hospital. Its so hard for me to deal with because I loved my boyfriend so much. He was my bestfriend. The way he was taking from me is so unfair. My heart is in pieces as I cry while writing this. I always speak to his family cause we were close. But I really want to talk,see or hear my mans voice. I just don't want to believe that I lost another person that I love deeply.
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I have noticed lately that i am having dreams with re-occuring teams.
my wife leaving (though some circumstance) and having greater responsibilities to look after others..
are other experiencing dreams with constant team's ?
"Joe: I'm with you on the signs. I was positive my husband would send me signs. I've read many books where people say it happens. It's not a bird or a butterfly, but they actual see and hear their loved…"
"Geraldine, it'll be five months on Thursday that my Darling died in my arms. I know she loved me with all her heart and if she could she would send me a sign. I'm convinced that she can't. I just hope that she can…"
"Connie, I hope your mom is okay. I know how hard it is when another family member is ill.Our son's birthday was last Thursday (June 14). The 8th without him. And on Friday the 15th, my only sibling, my brother passed. …"
"B. Windsor, I am so happy for you that you finally were able to see and visit with your grandson. I hope it brought you some peace and happiness, and I hope you will be able to have a good relationship with him."
"Hello. Where has everyone gone? I don't ever remember it being so quiet here. I would like to think that is a good sign, but fearful that the newbies are being ignored.This place was a place of comfort and understanding when I…"
"I haven't posted in awhile. May 26 was the 7 year date of my sons death and June 2 would have been his 23rd birthday, Gabriel was kind thoughtful and a pure joy to everyone he met. this life and the grieving have been very cyclical and when I…"
"Great words Bluebell.
I did not even leave my job as you and Virginia did so I have more reasons to feel guilty. I did not even tall to her enough before her illness.
But as Bluebell said guilt has life of its own. "
"Its been a long long road since the day my husband died. I cannot lie. This is not getting any easier. Instead of being in such a fog about what to do next I have more clarity as to what things are going to be like and I dont like…"
""I quit my job and had the most important job, to take care of her. She gave me life and took care of me my whole life, only for me to fail her when she needed me. But what do I do with this guilt? How do I punish…"
"Virginia, I never, ever want to give anyone the impression that I did everything right. And I got way too much praise through mom's illness and after her death. I knew better. They were right about one thing. I sure loved my mom. I could have…"