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Crystal Herrera
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- La Mirada, CA
- United States
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- About Me:
- I'm a mother of a six year old son who died in a car accident in 2019.
His death was the biggest loss of my life I've ever experienced!
You see I lost my dad in 2002 to cancer at the age of 21 and my life spiraled out of control since then. I began drinking heavily but thank God since I was close to my father this was a mistake I knew was wrong! I had a close encounter in a vivd dream of my dad in a Bright white light with Jesus standing right next to him and I could see my dad happy and pain free!
When I tell people my experience they think I'm crazy! I wad very close to my dad a his daddys girl and went everywhere with him! My dad always treated my mom like his queen and always gave her whatever she wanted and I knew that as I grew older that's exactly what I wanted and I thought I did get it but I was wrong!
When my drinking grew out of control I was able to stop and I knew it was time and so I checked myself into the most awesome shelters known to mankind right in the perfect heart of California next to the beach!
After I had been at the shelter with on six days I got myself a job and I kept it for almost three years. And within the first year I made a friend actually three close friends!
One of them was a man who grew very fond of me and wanted to get to know more about me and so I told him my story!
We both ended up graduating from the program at the shelter and ended up saving enough money to get a place of our own and we moved out.
But as time grew on after being out of the shelter five years later something in this man had changed and I knew I had to do something for myself and this man that loved me like he said he did was not so good anymore and he was sent to jail as a result!
I thought that sending him to jail so he could learn his lesson after six months was a mistake in my part!
He grew ugly and his temper was not so good and he grew violent and very abusive in 2008 and so he went back to jail and I started taking care of myself the way it should always be! The things I found out that he did behind my back was a loss of trust and he took advantage of me and even cheated on me too and thank God we were never married!
U see a woman should always be treated as a queen and never be taken advantage of and a relationship is always based on trust!
Well with this same man I learned to forgive him but I never forgot what he did to me cause there were times when he did treat me right!
And so began my journey as a mother with this man and I was pregnant with my son and he was born in 2013!
I loved my son so much and I gave him anything and everything he wanted but then in 2017 my life was again turned upside down with my son's father and that was the last time I ever saw my son alive! You see as a child my birth father gave me Ssi money after he died and at the age of 21 was when I could get it but there was a catch I had to have a payee and that was my son's father!
On April 3,2017 I got my SSI money just like I did every month and my son's father and my son and I got up got dressed and went out to eat for breakfast and when we came home we had to go to the grocery store to get some things we needed and my son stayed home with his father cause he was asleep and so I went alone by myself!
I was only an hour away but little did I know my son's father made the biggest mistake and took off with my son and that was the last time I ever saw my son alive and he was only four!
When I came back from the store our house was destroyed and trashed and all of my son's clothes and his father's close were gone. I had no money to pay our rent and no food but thankfully I had a good connection with the owner of our apartment and I was able to stay until I could get back on my feet! My son's father wouldn't let me see my son again unless I had sex with him and I said no! And in 2019 my son and his father died in a car accident!
- About my Loss:
- My son died at the age of four in 2019 and I'm still crying till this day but I'm thankful I have my daughter who looks just like him!
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