In 1969 I lost my oldest and only brother to a drunk driver in Venezuela.  And on september 27,1995 I lost my mom to liver cancer. This pass feb.22,2010 my father passed away to an illness that I cannot spell.  So everyone is gone now, I have no brothers and sisters no kids. And never have been married. So this is a Punch in the face and a blow. Yeah!!! I have a stepmom we are very close and I have very close   friends and relatives but for the time being. That is not enough to feel the emptiness inside. And last month I was with my step grandmother as she passed away.  I guess then is when I did learn the lord blessed me with a special gift.  And I just need to use and tap into  that as much as I can.  This I will love to share for all.  At times before my dad passed away I could her my mom calling me and my dad.  And before my dad passed away I could hear her and I could  almost feel myself touching her.  She was telling me at that time my dad would be leaving me soon. And sure thing he passed away a few days later. 

And just a few days before my step-grandmother passed. I could feel and hear Jesus telling me to ask my step grandmother if she has heard him speak to her. I did and she told me what he said. And that was he was ready for her to come home. The night when she passed away, I knew the time was near. And I told my stepmom and Hospice to leave the room. Again I asked do you see my friend Jesus? She said yes, I told her go to him, he is my best friend you know. Also I told her tell all to watch after us and she said OK.  So about 20 min or less she passed away.

And so anyway for this time being I get stronger by supporting and giving comments to others. It's much easyier for me. But hey my friend Jesus wants me to do that. And he wants me to share his Home is very near by.  OH yes and close!!! We have a great loving god.  We are his children, and he sure knows how to get our attention.  He has done that with me so well over so many issues.  And for great reason's.  SO that is a little of my story to share.  Oh yes I am praying hard for 2 people one lost her grandfather the other lost her husband. I am praying that the lord will open that sweet door. Just maybe I can hear them speak to me, or Jesus speak for them.   This may sound strange and off the wall for many. That is OK  I do understand.  

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I too have lost my entire immediate family, have no relationship or children. My world fell apart This April 2010 so I can relate to that feeling of utter lonliness and emptiness. I have moved, on my own, to Egypt to try and sort my head and heart out - I have been hear for one month, and the feelings are just getting worse and worse and worse till now i can't even get out of bed.
I need some hope that this will pass and I will 'feel' anything again. I feel like an empty well .

My thoughts go out to you.

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