Hello all. I lost my dad 9 years ago this coming July this mother’s day I lost my best friend. I am having a hard time copying. When I lost my dad I had by best friend who was like a sister to me to help me cope. He took his own life and I was the one to find him and I am sad to admit I never got over it to this day it still stays in my mind but she got me through the bad days. Then on mother’s day of this year I said goodbye to my sister my friend well my everything and I feel so alone. I do have a therapist & I even am involved in a grief support group in my town however I still feel so alone. Many people have said they went through something similar with losing a loved one to cancer but I have not met anyone who shared in the loss of a parent to suicide. I stumbled across this online and decided to give it a try. I just feel so alone now especially without my best friend she was really my only close friend. I am sorry for everyone’s loss as well and sending you all a hug and warm wishes
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