My son, Hunter was 16 when he passed away from a drug overdose (autopsy's not back yet, but I'm pretty sure that's what it will show) on the day after Christmas '09.

This has crushed me. It was something that I had worried about for several years. Then Hunter started passing his drug tests (he was on probabtion) and going to church with me.  I feel like I let my guard down.

March 19, he would have been 17....instead of being excited about planning a get together with my side of the family for him, I get to spend the next few weeks wondering when his gravestone will be delivered.

Drugs are so rampant in this area and it seems to me that no one in law enforcement is that concerned. I'm sure they are, but there is so much more that needs to be done.  That was my question to them over a year ago, "Does Hunter have to die before you will do anything?

Of course, the day Hunter died, the officer that I had asked that question to...assured me that this was a full investigation and they would find out what happened. Well, you know what, for Hunter, it's too damn late!

Thanks for letting me vent!

 

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Dear Jenine, I know you know that fear and faith can not be in the same room. Please do not let your fear take over you. Do what you know best, and put him on every prayer chain you can find. In you prayers send him love, health, and ask for forgiveness in anything that you or the collective society might have done to cause this. Tell him in your prayers how much you love him and all the good things about him. This is a very powerful healing process, and has worked for others. The most amazing intervention I ever helped with was when all the family members asked for forgiveness from the addict for their part in the addiction. Instead of feeling attacked he felt loved, and then opened up his own misgivings. My son did not die from drugs, but never the less, I saw he was not looking right, and only wish I had done this intervention as then he might have shared with me that he was scared that his heart problem was back. It is so hard to know the right thing to do, and no matter what we must remember that we are all doing the best we can. I will pray for him Coach Louise
You speak wisdom. Please pray for my son , he has been more difficultx100 than any one except my father. He is a tatoo artist, 33 yrs, a rager, is losing car and everything. Looks like a gangster except for the giant pretty tatoo of Jesus on his neck. He loves God's Word which is the biggest plus he can have. Deep down he's hurting and struggling and can be very abusive. On July 4,9 yrs ago,his 5 yr. younger brother died, and then 2 mo. ago, his friend, my fiancee died suddenly, after he had raged at him. His wife has understandably left him.He and his younger brother came to the Lord together 13 yrs ago,so there was this extreme wonderful bond, but the raging was intense there also, and I know he has a lot of guilt about that. No one would ever guess, but I know somewhat of how many times he has sent to the starving and done about 50 quality drawings for a Children's Bible geared toward the black people with which he would never take money for the Gosple. His brother and sister have a bad genetic blood disease, complicated by scitzoprenia with the older son, who has been in the hospital for 3 weeks now. I know God can easily work a miricle for him. His father and I were married 40 yrs, but I heard him say Stephen in spite of all this probably had more converts than anyone he knew. I know it is God who does the change, but he lends himself to that even to the person in the ditch . He's against a wall right now, and he is my brother in Christ and I love him as a son also. He has no relationship with his father, and had begun to relate to my fiancee in this way. The way God saved this wild card in the first place can come to completion in the same awesome way. Pray.
Hi Rita
I'm sorry I haven't replied sooner. I will pray for your son and I hope that all turns out well for him. You are right...God is the answer to this and it is great that your son does know God. You will also be in my prayers..as a mother, I understand the heartache and frustration that you are feeling. Please visit Hunter's website at www.virtualmemorials/hunterrobinson.com my private email and phone number is on there (under "note to visitors" if you ever need to vent. (((hugs)))))
Dear Lorie, You have a right to vent, drugs are something that has taken so many. Drugs have a much louder voice on the one taking them........ drowning out the voice of parents. At 16 we all want to fit in and be cool. so please do not be hard on yourself. They could always use more people to help fight drugs, and this might be helpful for you in the future, at least it is a thought. My son Hudson was 22 when he left, I was blessed to have had 6 more years than you, thank you for reminding me of my blessings. Treat yourself kindly , I send you love, Coach Louise
Im sorry to hear about your son, Hudson (love the name by the way). Do you ever feel as if everyone has forgotten him? That's the way I am feeling right now. Except for some in my family it almost seems to me as if people are acting like Hunter never existed. It's sad. Then it makes me mad. I don't know anything anymore. I havent had a nightmare in 4 days, for that I am thankful!!! Anyway, thank you for the comment, maybe when I get woke up this day may make more sense to me. :-)
Dear Lorie, If I thought Hudson was a part of me I had to keep to myself and I could not talk about him, I would have night mares too. That is why I am on a mission to change the way we deal with death. People act like he never existed because they do not want to make you sad by talking about him. Death is such a covered up subject that it leaves us all unprepared. Hunter is still with you, listen with your heart, building a new relationship takes time. It is ok to talk about him, he is your son he is a part of you. Hugs Coach Louise

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