I'm a lucky mom to a precious 3yr old boy. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis & fibromyalgia, but am a fighter. I love people, love to read, do anything outside, & am thankful God is with me every step of the way.
About my Loss:
My mom suffered my whole life in & out of hospitals with Crohns, RA, Colitis. She would always come out of a rough patch with the illnesses. I gave birth to my precious boy on April 2, 2009...& she got so sick she was unable to come to the hospital to see us. I spoke to her the day before going in to induce & she was fine. Things progressed & I lost her 22 days after giving birth...on April 24, 2009. I'm an only child & she was my best friend, my biggest fan, the window into my past..& all at once she was gone. To this day just the thought of her brings me to tears. Her mother, my other best friend..died almost 2 years later to the day..April 14, 2011. I have been an emotional mess w/o them as an only child trying to figure out the "mom" role. I still have things I need to pick up the phone & call them about.
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