Our 36 year old daughter died from inflammatory breast cancer 16 days ago, 12-19-14. None of us, (including her) knew she was even sick, from diagnosis to death was 31 days.
The dr's gave her 2 weeks or less to live at time of diagnosis, but she was able to last a couple extra weeks. while that time will always be precious, it was not enough, it will never be enough.
She went from what we thought was perfectly healthy, although overworked, to dead in just weeks, that is the shocking part of all of this.
Our daughter was 36, and although quite responsible, she was also very petite and childlike, she even looked more like a 12 year old girl than a grown woman to those who met her.
She was my best friend and my soul mate, we were more like twins emotionally than mother and daughter. We could frequently read each others minds, we shared dreams and premonitions numerous times throughout her life and some people just thought us odd. but we weren't, we were just very blessed.
there are no words for the incredible loss of my girl, I am not sure I will ever recover.
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Karen, I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I understand what a sudden death feels like. I lost my daughter in a car accident 15 months ago. The shock lasts so long, I still have a hard time grasping she is gone from my life physically. Let your emotions out when they come,, and be kind to yourself. In the beginning you can't imagine that you will survive this grief and loss. I thought I was crazy those first six months. We are here for you anytime. I am so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. You must be in total shock. I lost my 17 year old son in a tragic car accident. I understand the sudden horror. We are all here for you as you make your way through this grief and I am sending prayers for your strength to get though these days.
(((((HUGS))))) I wish I could give you a "real" hug. . . Leg cramps are really terrible and I am so sorry what you all have gone thru. This must be absolutely overwhelming not to mention devastating. Over 2 years ago my husbands brother was taken by pancreatic cancer in 27 days - for all of us though, it wasn't so hard to believe because the tumor or tumors were growing so fast they could be seen growing down his hips and starting down his legs. The cancer had engulfed and filled his chest cavity and made it hard to breath.
I am glad to see that you found this wedsite because talking really is the best medicine. Here is my favorite quote:
Talking can be a helpful release. Following the death of all ten of his children, as well as some other personal tragedies, the ancient patriarch Job said: “My soul certainly feels a loathing toward my life. I will give vent to [Hebrew, “loose”] my concern about myself. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul!” (Job 1:2, 18, 19; 10:1) Job could no longer restrain his concern. He needed to let it loose; he had to “speak.” Similarly, the English dramatist Shakespeare wrote in Macbeth: “Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o’er-fraught heart and bids it break.” So talking about your feelings to “a true companion” who will listen patiently and sympathetically can bring a measure of relief. (Proverbs 17:17) Putting experiences and feelings into words often makes it easier to understand them and to deal with them. And if the listener is another bereaved person who has effectively dealt with his or her own loss, you may be able to glean some practical suggestions on how you can cope. When her child died, one mother explained why it helped to talk to another woman who had faced a similar loss: “To know that somebody else had gone through the same thing, had come out whole from it, and that she was still surviving and finding some sort of order in her life again was very strengthening to me.”
May you find goof friends to listen - I will listen with a truly sympathetic heart anytime day or night...
I lost my wife and soul mate to breast cancer in February of 2013. After a 6 year battle. She was 50. Even though she was going for annual monograms. A spot was over looked. I could write a whole lot more on that, but I want bore you. So there are no guarantees. She was what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. We had big plans for a early retirement. Now all a mute point. I also lost my sweet mother in July of 2014. I am a only child so you can image our relationship. She meant the world to me.
Karen words don't help much. But I am so sorry for your loss. There is some comfort in knowing that there are others that have suffered a great loss. This web site is a good place to find that.
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