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DR. diagnosed me with compound grief, said its gonna be a tough road for me to heal because of my lack of support ,Some of you are so very blessed to have family and friends to help you through this…Continue

Started this discussion. Last reply by Susan V Jul 20, 2014.

A Gift of "LOVING MEMORIES" for the Holiday

During the Holidays it can be an especially hard time so I thought It might be nice to share the gift of "Happy Memories" of our loved ones whom have departed and dedicate this space especially for…Continue

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I am a 46 year old female , I am grieving for several losses including that of all my grandparents ,my uncle, some cousins ,my aunts , my brother a couple friends ,6 months ago my beloved pet cat I had for 13 years died in my arms ,my 20 year marriage dissolved and now my most recent is that of my mother whom just past November 23rd...I also struggle my whole lief with GAD-generalized anxiety disorder , panic disorder,and clinical depression. My life is a bit of a mess , I don't have much in way of a support system so I found this site.
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Although I mourn many losses I think MOM is the hardest because she was the person whom gave me life. When I think of her departure from this earth I am Sad but grateful,
My mother passed away Saturday November 23rd 2013 ,She was 70 years old and was a feisty pistol till the end . She had several ailments that could have caused her demise including an aneurism on the aorta ,also she had internal bleeding , a mild heart attack and some other prior problems ,The Doctors told us they could not operate as she would not survive the surgery , That's when we then made the decision to do comfort care/Hospice. She survived for two days in the ICU but was then able to be transferred back to the nursing home where she was living , She had stated before she had gone under medication that she wanted to go back home , I'm happy she fought long enough to make it back there. With my sister,our family , her friends , the staff and the hospice team, to surround her with love and prayers. I give thanks on this day that my mother went peacefully into Gods loving arms and will no longer feel the emotional or physical pains , I pray that everyone who has lost a loved one feel inner peace today in knowing that even though death for the body/ vessel is permanent the dying process is temporary and however they may have passed just know your loved one is also at peace and is no longer feeling any pain .

This is the best link I have found so far to help me realize all my symptoms are "normal" .... It is so helpful to pop on it every now and again to keep reminding myself

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Losing and mourning family during the holidays and seeing the love within grief .

It has not even been a week since her passing and today being a holiday to spend with family and loved ones giving thanks for ones blessings... As I sit in my home alone reflecting on my life and my many losses I can cry a river of tears and easily feel the need to retreat to a dark place . I am not gonna let myself do that ... My mother , all my grandparents, brother, aunts, uncle ,cousins, friends and beloved pets who have passed on would not want that for me. 

Sure I let myself…


Posted on November 28, 2013 at 3:44pm

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At 5:55pm on December 5, 2013, Rhona said…

Thank you so much for the request Niecy.

At 7:57am on December 4, 2013, Mikad said…

NIECY Im so sorry to read of your Moms passing. I pray that you will find comfort and that God will hold you in his arms. The pain is so much and so intense . Love and light my friend (( hugs ))

At 6:01pm on December 3, 2013, anne said…

Greetings Niecy!  I welcome you as my friend.

At 10:54pm on November 30, 2013, Niecy said…

Thank you so much Rachel and Carol, It's been a pretty rough day today as it is one week to the day mom has passed and in one hour I will be lighting a candle in her honor .  I was doing ok the usual feelings of grief earlier but as it got later in the day I succumbed to a great big deep ugly cry that knocked me to the floor... It's so hard going through this alone I feel really exhausted sometimes . I am very grateful to have found this site and all of you good people whom take the time to care and share your hearts .  xoxo 

At 9:51pm on November 30, 2013, Rachel said…
Thinking of you, sending you comfort and positive thoughts!
At 2:59pm on November 30, 2013, Carol Bolding said…

I am here for you too, if you want to chat.

At 2:59pm on November 30, 2013, Carol Bolding said…

Thank you Neicy.  God Bless you and yours.

At 3:42pm on November 29, 2013, Carol Bolding said…

Thank you Neicy.  God Bless you and yours.  My heart and prayers go out to you. But you are right, they are not suffering any longer.  They are in a glorious place which we will also be someday, spending eternity with our loved ones and our almighty "Lord.".  My mom also suffered various ailments and several strokes before she passed.  She was one of the strongest people I know.  She made it to be 90 years of age, thru the "Grace" of "God."

At 3:09pm on November 28, 2013, Danny said…

amazing post.



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