Connie K
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Hi Jesse's Mom, Just wanted to send you hugs and prayers. You explained it all so well. I am immersed in TCF newsletter - I am editor for our chapter - but pretty much produce the whole thing. It's tough to do it because of all the sad…"
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"It's been so long since I've been here. Somehow I don't get notifications anymore. And from November til after y sin' birthday March 31 I just want to run away and disengage with the world. But I think of you all and send you…"
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Hugs to all here. I a here less and less. Ammy thank you for asking about my mom. IT hasn't been good. Se ended up having another heart surgery and can no longer live alone. She is living with my sister (who is 70 herself - my mom is 88) and it…"
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Hello to all. It has been a while since I've posted. It's good to hear frm you Michelle.We've been walking this road together for almost the same ampunt of time. My Daniel has been gone for 5 years last Dec.1 This march 31 is his…"
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Teresa  I am praying for your daughter. This must be incredibly hard for you. There are so many new treatments on the horizon now for cancer.  I am a 12 year cancer survivor this week. She will be okay. Love and hugs to you <3"
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Connie K commented on Kar's group Missing my Son or Daughter
"Well it's been a very long while since I've been on this site. I feel like you Karen that I don't have much to say or share that will help. Karen - you have helped so many so much by creating this group. Dec.1 will be 5 years for me…"
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About Me:
I am a singer and graphic designer but have been only working part time since my son was born. I dedicated my life to making sure his was good, when he was 13 he was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease and has suffered greatly the last few years with the disease and it's complications. Ironically he was doing so much better, then a senseless way to die. I am devastated.
About my Loss:
We lost our 17 year old son, Daniel in a tragic car accident three weeks ago. He was our only child.

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Today is such a hard day. I am going along and BAM I can't believe he is gone. His girlfriend came by yesterday and showed me a video she had made about 4 days before he died. It was a funny video called "My boyfriend does my make-up".  It shows him so happy with her and his funny lovable self. It was both wonderful to see and of course a heartbreaking reminder of the beautiful person who is no longer here to laugh with. He was such a beautiful boy and how I miss holding those hands.  I love…

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Posted on July 18, 2013 at 3:23pm

11:11

It was 2 months last Sat night that I lost my sweet boy Daniel. He was 17. It was my birthday yesterday and my husband's is this coming Sat. It was so hard. I know what you mean about wanting to hear "Hey Mom". Oh God I miss him so much and I just want to reach out and give him a hug and for life to be bearable again. I am so sorry for your pain and for everyone who has to endure this loss.

But I believe his spirit lives on and feel I have been visited by him.My husband is more of a…

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Posted on January 29, 2013 at 5:00pm

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At 3:03am on March 18, 2017, Tammy Butcher said…
Connie if only words could make things better! I lost my daughter a 15 months ago, sle lupus stole her at age 30. I've had people tell me they know how I feel, they lost a pet or a parent. I've lost pets & parents too an though painful their is no comparison. Family is afraid of upsetting me so nobody mentions her name. It's like it's too painful! As a parent, I cringe at each family picture at holidays that does not include her, I long to hear her name. I watch life go on..
And I fear her voice, her laugh & her cute antics will be forgotten,

I know my daughter is with Jesus, she loved him so much, as I do..., I don't ask God questions
Because, the answer wouldn't take away the hurt...
But knowing that I will see her again
That takes away my pain, it doesn't stop me from missing her one little bit,

I will add you to my prayer list...
May God comfort you
Tammy
At 11:52am on December 13, 2015, Susan W said…
Thank you for your kind words.
At 8:13pm on October 18, 2015, Lori said…
Hi Connie

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure you hear that a lot. But I know the feeling and I'm truly sorry and hurt for anyone going through this. I'm so sick to my stomach at times missing my Cameron. I just almost dread everyday. People just go on with life and I can't and don't want to. I just can't accept that life goes on without my beautiful son.
At 11:42pm on July 8, 2015, Gita KG said…

Connie, thank you for your kind and caring comment.  I am so sorry for what you have also had to go through.  Not that I want to be connected to these pages but I am also very, very grateful.  It's heartbreaking to know that so many others are suffering the passing of their children... sigh

At 10:16am on June 9, 2015, Toni Jones said…

Connie, thank you for your kindness. Its's so hard to be nice when our world seems so cruel. The passing of my son has certainly made me bitter, angry and even sometimes mean. Thank you again. You and so many others have shown me that there are kind people still left in this world. Sending comforting hugs.

At 7:53pm on April 8, 2015, morgan said…

Connie. I don't always read the posts of losing a child but for some reason I just hit on yours and felt like you are doing something very constructive and looked to see how your son had died.  Very sad that he was taken the way he was.  I tended to someone who had Crohns a long time ago and that is a horribly painful disease and with it under control and then lose him senselessly is devastating.  

What I found so interesting about your post was the reference to 11:11.  I found for awhile consistently for about a month the same thing had been popping up to me and frequently enough that it was hard to ignore.  Very weird.  I finally googled it it said it was a new beginning.  It wasn't specific as to who was supposed to have the new beginning although it was pointing a bit to the "survivor" and as such I wasn't feeling it.  But I still see it a lot.  Not as much but a lot.  If it does mean they are trying to contact us to let us know they are ok then it helps me feel a bit better.  I will see various iterations of the 1's.  10:11, 11:01, etc.  

Just now I went through another of one of my major meltdowns and I sometimes  record them in iPhoto booth as I hope that someday I can rewind and see I am doing better or if I die maybe others will understand what this pain is like.  I am at a mark in time though that I do not see any kind of light as I don't feel like I am getting any better.  If anything the breakdowns are fewer but so much more intense.  Reality is wearing me out.  My spirit was broken when my husband died and now without his guiding light I am so lost.  I just don't know how to do this anymore.   I am totally alone.  But maybe that 11:11 was trying to let me know he is somewhere. I will try to hang on that hope.

At 12:08pm on March 24, 2015, Rj said…
Wow i just read your post bout 11:11....it made me smile
At 4:43pm on March 9, 2015, haniyyah said…
Thankyou so much
At 9:19pm on February 25, 2015, PJ ESPO said…

Hi Connie 

Thank You for your condolences regarding my situation. I am very sorry that you lost your son . I truly know how you feel because I have been living a nightmare every day since October when my beautiful wife suddenly became an angel.Hold onto the good memories and try to live life with spirit.It will not be easy to move forward but you have support here.Life does and will go on for you .Feel free to communicate with me at any time for I am fully aware what you are going through right now ....

At 3:20pm on February 16, 2015, Jesse's Mom said…

Connie, wow, that is even longer out than ours. It is so stressful...I am fearful of going into court and hearing the other side drag my son through the mud, Jesse was such incredible good person, versus the loser girl that ran him over. I don't know how you are  holding out emotionally. Do you have a private attorney representing  you or the DA?

 
 
 

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