October 2016 Blog Posts (23)

Lost

My passed away suddenly on the 13th August this year and I feel lost. I know that Mom is gone but I just miss her so much I just want her back, it just feels so unfair that she has been taken away. My Mom was such a caring person it just feels wrong that she was taken away so young. I switch between being really angry and snapping at everyone to just crying all of the time.

Added by Marie Bailey on October 29, 2016 at 4:18pm — No Comments

Counseling session #1

Billy today I went for my first counseling session. It was hard but I talked it out you I'm blaming myself for not talking to you that day about what I suspected. If I would have would you still be here could I have changed your mind. I have so much frustration about this be cause I'm hurt, feel abandoned, numb, just going through the motions to get through the day. I'm scared and I want to block it all out and pretend your still here. If I don't face reality it's not real. I know everything… Continue

Added by Cyndi W on October 29, 2016 at 12:14am — No Comments

trying to be happy

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

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Added by emma on October 27, 2016 at 3:00pm — No Comments

trying to be happy

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

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Added by emma on October 27, 2016 at 1:43pm — No Comments

trying to be happy

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

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Added by emma on October 27, 2016 at 1:43pm — No Comments

trying to be happy

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

Continue

Added by emma on October 27, 2016 at 1:43pm — No Comments

trying to be happy

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

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Added by emma on October 27, 2016 at 1:43pm — No Comments

I am a Ghost

I feel so empty inside.  I am literally on auto pilot.  Going through the motions, and telling people what they want to hear, so they will stop asking me how I am, and go away. I know they are just being caring, but I am tired, and exhausted.  Too exhausted to keep explaining that I am not ok, I am dying inside, so instead I just say "Yeah I am ok."

Does it ever end, or will I spend what time I have left on this miserable planet in misery, and heartache.  Because I feel that…

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Added by Donna Amendola on October 26, 2016 at 6:55pm — 1 Comment

Learning to cope without you.

William(Billy) the love of my life you left us so suddenly.  I know I have your memories and we had some great ones.  As i sit here watching the cursor on my computer blink Im lost I have no words.  Billy i know I got to spend some great years with you and I do cherish them.  Your laugh was infectious with many Cajun stories to tell.  But you see on October 16th 2016 you stole half of me.

I found you the way I never hoped to see you and Cas was with me.  We had to deal with the…

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Added by Cyndi W on October 25, 2016 at 11:48am — 6 Comments

no one

My sisters  husband left her 3 months ago just walked out, today she rang me and told me that he's come back, and all I could do was put the phone down and sob and sob, I should be happy for, she was devastated when he left, but all I feel is jealously and anger because she has her man back and I will never have mine back, I hate that I've become this jealous monster, who can't stand to see people happy, this is not who I am ,or this is not who I was, too be honest I don't know who the hell…

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Added by joanne on October 24, 2016 at 4:15pm — 1 Comment

365 days.

I miss you.

I wish that was enough to accurately describe how I feel, but it does not even come close. I don’t just miss you; I feel so much more than a mere longing.

I miss your laugh, your lame jokes, your hugs, your voice, and your presence in my life. I miss your “hi” text in he mornings we weren’t together, the “be there soon” and the hours of time we spent together just talking and sharing our dreams and hopes. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I can’t say it…

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Added by Lauri Richards on October 24, 2016 at 10:47am — 2 Comments

Alone in grief.

I feel as if i am alone.i know i am not i am a wear of it but i miss my parents i lost them is a short period of time and i am struggling to stay calm and sane at first whebt they died i was strong and hid my feelings...leading to cryin alone in the hideing in my room so no one could see or hear me avoiding human contact when the days got too hard but now i cant hode anymore im seeing things that remond me of them eavry were i go and with the holidays near this will b the fisrt without them am… Continue

Added by Rosemarie Virginia Townsend on October 20, 2016 at 10:54am — 1 Comment

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Hi Members,

I want to introduce you to Shipt.  It is a grocery delivery service when you just don't feel like going to the grocery store.  It's very easy to use. 

Simplify your life with grocery delivery! Shipt makes grocery shopping fast, simple and convenient through the Shipt mobile app and reliable personal Shoppers.…

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Added by Diana, Grief Recovery Coach on October 16, 2016 at 1:00pm — No Comments

Emotional Support Dog

After my father's death, I became so emotionally unstable and I have had a lot of trouble motivating myself to do anything including being alive. My dog came to live with me 2 months ago because she gave me a sense of purpose having to take care of her and she helped me pull my self together and comfort me. I had been doing much better with her by my side and for the first time since I lost my dad I felt like I had my life together and could move forward. Today she had to go live with my mom…

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Added by Mare on October 11, 2016 at 6:24pm — 4 Comments

Trying to move forward

I'm trying to leave all these pain full thoughts behind and move forward , its not easy as my shrink says ..... How do u forgive your own mom for pushing u away when my dad was ill and died that's my main pain full thing ...

Added by emma on October 11, 2016 at 2:23pm — 2 Comments

I feel like I have the plague

My mom and husband passed within eight days of each other in September of 2015. And now for the last year all my family has left me completely alone they don't call why is it when you lose someone like that everyone disappears all the people that said they were going to be there for you is not don't they understand how hurtful that is how do you handle that ???

Added by Pamela philipp on October 8, 2016 at 1:00pm — 1 Comment

Another Loss

My older brother died on September 14 from kidney failure and an infection that could not be treated.

My sister-in-law called me to tell me he was in the hospital as I was checking my bag to fly from California to Iowa for my daughter's birthday.  That was on September 6th.…

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Added by Jim Eginoire on October 6, 2016 at 8:52pm — No Comments

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cry i sea

cry in sea

cry in sea…

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Added by dream moon JO B on October 5, 2016 at 5:10pm — No Comments

Almost 4 years

I don't even know where to begin ... Everyone thinks I am so strong and I handle this so well. But when I am alone I am depressed and despondent. My grief overwhelms me. I miss my child so very much. No matter how lucky I feel that I am blessed he left me with a awesome daughter in law and grand daughter. I still feel empty without my son, my baby. I can't seem to bring myself to talk to anyone about how I feel. I feel like if I do I make people uncomfortable. So I bury myself in my grief when… Continue

Added by Katherina Conley on October 4, 2016 at 2:26pm — No Comments

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Added by dream moon JO B on October 4, 2016 at 2:02pm — No Comments

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