My dad was diagnosed just a week after my 21st birthday and just three days before i was scheduled to move back to for my senior year of college that was 2 hours away from home. I was more than ready to take a semester off to help around the house and with my father. We were told that it was stage 4 lung cancer, that was highly aggressive and had already metastasized. We were told he would have maybe 2 years but that it was unbeatable. That entire weekend we argued back and forth but my…

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Mary Haines was a wife a mother and a grandmother Mary was a painter a woodworker a singer mary has five children four girls and a boy she was everything to me we’ve been together for 37 years from what I can figure we only spent 25 days apart we work together we did everything together it’s going to be really hard to finish my life without her I miss her so much and I’ll love her forever

My husband and I had discussed that this past year we were going to tell my son the truth about santa, etc. Then my husband passed in October so I didn't want to take that magical experience away from him even though he's 9 because it was so close to his father passing. Now with Easter coming up- has it been long enough to tell him the truth about the bunny since he is 9 now or should I let him hold that for one more year? Very torn.

So time still isn't helping I know its been not quite 3 months but the days are long the nights are long, I'm still crying all the time. And now what....three days ago my dad was admitted to the hospital for pneumonia..he keeps telling me he is tired, tired all the time.I know he is missing mom although he doesn't cry like me, I know deep in my heart he is heartbroken. .nothing is the same he doesnt like to do alot of the things he did before mom went to heaven..I won't be able to handle…

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I tried this meditation to meet with my deceased loved one and it really worked. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6diOcY65xGI

Sundays were going to be our day, amanda said we'll both be working through the week, friday nights or saturdays we'd see friends or family so sundays should be our day. We would spend the day cuddled up in bed watching tv then spend the day doing something for us. Cooking a nice dinner together or going out and doing something.

I think about that every sunday morning when I wake up now. We never got those lazy sunday mornings wrapped up in each others arms.

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It has been almost 4 months now since the lovd of my life passed away and my heart just aches... I sit in the house and I have all these thoughts just racing through my mind none stop I don't sleep at night and when I do it's usually because I've cried myself to sleep.... I pray and talk to God and I hear nothing and this pain that I feel is like it will never go away... It's so many dreams and desires that are no longer there.... Sometimes my family makes me feel like I'm wrong for what I'm… Continue

today I got mail for shawn, omg I cryed and screamed, the pain I felt in my heart.  will it ever stop? oh god I miss my baby so bad. I just want so much to RUN to him. my eyes are so swollen, my heart so empty. oh please please god take me to my son, im so tired and weak. so alone.  almost 15 months, its like yesterday, easters on the 5, his birthdays the 5 and the fifth means 15 months . so dam much on one friggen day, its to hard to deal with, to pain full to  go on. let me feel you shawn…

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Losing anyone is a difficult experience to go through but I feel that losing a spouse can be more traumatic. Whenever you lose someone you have your partner to support you, someone to hold your hand and tell you it's going to be okay and you'll get through this. But when you lose your spouse you don't have that support. Friends and family try to be there to help you but your partner would be there at times no one else could, first thing in the morning, last thing at night or when you…

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my older sister called first time in a month, asked me how I was, I told her it was a bad week hurting and crying. to my surprise  she told me to take all my pills and end my life then I will be with my son.  I cryed all night holding my pills, waiting for shawn to help me decide. I want so much to go with him, I cant go on like this, it hurts so much. maybe shes right, I know ill never be happy without my son, I feel to much hate, so dead inside, so very empty and alone, dear god so alone. …

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Right now no matter what I do everything seems to be wrong when it comes to my son trying to deal with this also and it is a big thing for him so I am trying to do special things. Today I made reservations for horseback riding (which I love and am experienced) and he wanted to do for the first time finally. After I made the redervations he was happy for a while but then it was right bacj to yelling at me and hittting himself in the face making me feel like the worst mother in the world. I…

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As a woman, emotions are hard to handle, hard to control and hard to calm into logic.  But  being a woman or not, I'm sure this can go for anyone, this grieving, this pain seems to be its own person. Like a heavy weight inside my head and heart, a powerful spirit who can buckle me at my knees...With all respect for my mother i know she wouldn't  want me to still be crying, to still be able to not function without her. But at times it just seems like i cant help it. I wonder why it is that we…

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I'm looking for some help or advice.

   I'm feel the guilt every day of the decision I was asked to make.

Thirteen years ago my wife and I ,already having a one year old son found out were going to have a little sister for him. After painting her room pink,picking out a perfect name,and telling all of our friends and family, our future was turned upside down. At almost five months pregnant,the doctors found serious problems with our unborn baby. Because of the severity of her…

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I cry everyday, I feel so dead, please shawn help me to be with you. that's all I want, that's what I need. I have never felt such pain in my heart. I need you to come to my dreams, let me hold you one more time, let me hear you call me  MOM , let me feel your love one more time. you are and always will be my perfect son, my baby forever. how will I handle your birthdays coming, mothers day is coming,  I will never be happy till I hold you again,  please god take me to my son, let me smile…

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My husband passed away on February 20th. We've been together for 32 years and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with being without him. I've known him for over half my life and it feels a little scary. I have supportive friends and family but they can't be with me all the time and I find myself crying nights and weekends when I miss him the most. During the day I'm at work and it feels normal, except no one texts me to say 'I love you,' or ask me how my day is going.  I'm good at being…

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Hello,

My name is Valerie and I just recently lost my husband who was only 45 years old. I'm hoping you can share your stories with me, share you pain and hopefully we can encourage each other in this journey we did not choose for ourselves. 

I'm sure many of you feel the same. The emptiness at times can be overwhelming. I've cried so much everyday since his passing and I feel like part of me died with him. He was my soul mate and best friend. He was my…

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dad i miss u i wish u wear still hear plus evry 1 el its gon 2

i wish u gud i wish u cud  be still hear

still miss u i dont thn i will ever stop mising u 

i ask why did u hav 2 go why did othrs die on top did i do any thng…

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