"Widow brain is real. Factual. Many good articles on it. I am better than I was but not where I was before he got sick. I thought after he passed I was getting Dementia until my physician pointed me to articles on widow brain. …"
"Morgan. I too feel your pain. I keep very busy to avoid the thoughts that overcome me. When they do it is unbearable and I'm in disbelief that he is gone. So I get busy again. It's the only way I'm able to…"
"I'm so sorry for your loss Jeff. I hope you will find support and comfort on this site and what I have appreciated here is being able to say whatever I feel and not be judged. I lost my husband of 43 years last May and I am trying…"
"Joe: I'm with you on the signs. I was positive my husband would send me signs. I've read many books where people say it happens. It's not a bird or a butterfly, but they actual see and hear their loved…"
"I feel the very same Morgan. I had a love affair for 43 years. We have 3 children who are still devastated but would be completely paralyzed if I did something like you are talking about. I will bear this pain and remain alone for…"
"Morgan. Thank you so much for thinking of me yesterday and your words that hit home so much for me and many on here. You are so right about barely able to breathe at one year. I told my daughter yesterday was just like every day for…"
"I'm sorry Linda. I think the realization that all the plans made for retirement are gone and we are alone is the hardest thing to comprehend. The majority of my life I had been married. 43 years. To try and adjust to a…"
"Thank you Trina. I appreciate your kind words. I've had a sister and my little 98 yo mom say things like "you can't hide this by working so much, you have to face it." Or " it's been a year, you need…"
"All I do is work. I'm exhausted at the end of each day. The only time I don't think about things is when I'm working. The rest of the time it is all I think about. I play things over and over in my head. …"
As my third year alone approaches on April 29th, there is no peace. I miss Nancy more than ever and the only thing that makes living tolerable is my belief that I WILL see her again in the next life. As far as living today...I always told My Nancy "I wouldn't want to live in a world without you in it" and I still believe that! I am seeing a counselor of late and it doesn't do much more than kill time.
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Welcome to Online Grief Support - A Social Community
"This website is like a secret world we inhabit where the platitudes and scorn for not fitting in are understood as hogwash. We know better than anyone on the outside of our grief how this has affected us. I am so tired of being labeled…"
"I,m grateful that I found this site. It's sort of like besides my family, you all are the only friends I have left. I do have a couple that are long distance, but don't get to see them very often. All my so called local…"
"Morgan & Joe,
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. You put into words the horror I go through everyday. Going on year 7 without my Husband Julian. He was my whole life and I want to be with him but I can't. If I didn't believe in God I…"
"Joe, 49 years is a long time. Long enough to embed yourself in each other and there is nothing that will soothe the tearing apart of that union. I knew my husband for 55 (since 2nd grade) and we were together for 35. Long…"
"Morgan, Monday will be a very tough day for both of us. It's one year for me which seems like one long day, and six for you, which scares the hell out of me thinking about how long do I have to be here before I go to her. It seems like one long…"
"Lets be honest. Death sucks. As I read the posts on here and I see how we struggle when we lose someone to death it boggles the mind how any of us keep moving. I keep saying to myself there is something I can do to make myself feel better and it…"
Emma is now a member of Online Grief Support - A Social Community
"I agree with all of that. I didn't expect a reward. My mom was reward enough, but I am not the same person that I once was. And I thought that some kind of balance would occur. I can't explain that really. It's been defeating. As soon…"
"After my husband’s death, and now after losing my mother, I also found myself somehow imagining that, not so much that something good would happen, more that some kind of reward would come to me, something to balance off the pain and…"
"There's something that has been on my mind lately and this is the best place to mention it. As much as I feared and dreaded my mom's death, I sort of felt like something good would happen, maybe not right away, but eventually. Like Karma…"
"I know how you feel. I lost my mom Jan 6, 2019 and it is so raw and all I do is cry. I was in the room when she passed and had been all day. My regret is I wasn't holding her hand when she took her last breath. She had dementia and I saw her 3…"
I am not a doctor but I am a student of the Bible. It seems that you are suffering from anxiety over your past. Humans including ourselves seem to filter the good things we have done and focus on the "bad". But God is the opposite.…"