I am a 33 year old female. I am newly married. I am new to this and looking for others that can understand what I am going through. More than that I am looking for ways to cope with the sadness I feel daily.
About my Loss:
Three weeks after my sweet 16th birthday my father died. I didn't know how to approach this thought and denied it for years. I went on thinking it wasn't real. As time went by it started to set in and made me think about my family differently, like the fact that one day they aren't going to be there for me to take for granted. So, I became extremely close to my family after that. Life goes on any way you look at it but it's tougher to have the losses that seem like the suffering will never subside. Then on May 3, 2010 we lost our baby girl at 6 months along. I'm destroyed by it and working very hard to keep the smile on my face and not fall apart at every moment. I have a huge support system but being my friend nobody wants me to hurt by talking about it. I am at a loss to help my husband try to cope as well. I feel lost and miss my baby girl. Two weeks later we had to put down our family dog due to cancer. Then this past Thursday May 27th I lost my gramma. It seems as though there is a dark cloud above me that doesn't seem to want to go elsewhere. Anyone feel like talking?
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Thanks for the kind words. I feel so alone right now. I lost my sole bread winner, my mentor, my friend, my mom ( in many ways she was), and my companion.Its so hard to loose someone that you are so close to. Thanks again for stopping by and leaving words for me. I appreciate that a lot. Hugs to you.
"Strike those vacations below, they'll never be another one. Went on a memorial cruise with my daughter and family four months after she passed because she was so looking forward to it. It hurt enough to know they'll be no more."
"Yes Elynn, the loneliness. That's painful. They're not here and always was. Our best friend, lover, and most precious thing we had. We were lucky enough to spend the last 8 1/2 years together, joined at the…"
"Every day for me is the same day she passed. Not a joyful or even an ok moment. I spend a little time with the children and grands and do my best to hide my emotions, but they all know how I am inside, even the youngest grand at age 4…"
"Avi, I don't know if we can rethink our emotions that way. Our emotions are what they are, although reason can help us form our emotions and hopefully change them for the better. I don't know if my mom can hear me or not. I certainly…"
"How are you all doing?
I had bad last 2 days. Felt lot of guilt and cried. There were some moments which made me remember my mother.
Also I hear comforting words by a lady that people who have gone from this world can still feel your…"
"I wonder how i am managing. Not well and to be onest today I wanted to just set a date with death. I am approaching seven years of being without him and though I function towards the outside world better and my crying has lessened but at the…"
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