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I have three two sisters. An older sister and a younger one. Since my younger sister, Becky, was murdered I've become the middle child. Although, I suppose I've just always been the older one..My…Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by Bob Fredrick Jan 31, 2013.
I've been feeling disconnected lately. From my family, my friends, my work and especially my emotions. I think it may be a defense mechanism, an attempt to protect myself for further pain. I have a…Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by Tahnee Attwood Jan 31, 2013.
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I had my first therapy session yesterday. I was so nervous that my hands were shaking and I thought I might get sick but this was long over due for me.
I was so beyond nervous that I had to call a good friend of mine. He has this amazing ability to 'talk me down' when I get worked up. He has been to a therapist of his own and he told me that the first session is usually the hardest because you're about to be brutally honest with a complete stranger but he reassured me that this is…Continue
Posted on June 27, 2013 at 7:46am
In two days my sister will have been gone from this world for 180 days. 6 months. Each hour we get closer to the 20th my anxiety builds. I can't breathe, I can't think straight, I have no appetite, my heart is pounding, my hands are shaking and I just want to disappear. People around me can feel the anxiety radiating off me. I know that Thursday will be just another day for so many people in the world but I desperately don't want Thursday to come. I know it will accomplish nothing and change…Continue
Posted on June 18, 2013 at 10:43am — 3 Comments
I'm just realizing how badly my sister's death has affected me. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control and I can't stop myself.
I thought I was being really strong and doing a great job of holding myself together but I couldn't have been more wrong. There has been a perfect storm brewing inside me since I got that phone call and I'm only now seeing it.
I started smoking again (I had quit last April cold turkey and was doing so well), my drinking has increased a lot, I'm…Continue
Posted on May 23, 2013 at 1:22pm — 1 Comment
So, I'm a big dreamer. I have dreams almost every night and up until my sister died, I always had pretty normal dreams. Right after my sister died I dreamed about her a lot. Some were good dreams, remembering things from when we were younger. Some were really bad dreams.
The one that I remember so vividly felt more like an 'out-of-body' experience than a dream.
I dreamt that I was in her apartment with her the night that her boyfriend killed her. She was holding my hand and…Continue
Posted on May 1, 2013 at 10:57am — 1 Comment