"bluebird, I was visiting my sister today and she brought up a cat I had a dozen years ago. He was my best friend a very special little guy. All of the sudden, I started crying and she looked shocked. Next week is my wife's…"
"Richard, I identify with much of what you have written. The frustration that explodes as anger as you grow desperate to express your deepest feelings. The anger that hurts the one you love and you fear so profoundly that it's…"
"KIM, it's 2 years and 6 months or so since I lost my wife and in the last couple of weeks I've been finally tearing open boxes and trying to put things away where I live now. It's taken all that time to even begin to look at the…"
"Since last Christmas, I've been drinking far more than I should to get through the day. No one in the family cares because I'm pleasant, social, funny, and talkative. As long as I don't remind them of death, no problem.…"
"Another holiday coming up and my sister had to go to the emergency room with an infection. When I went to the information desk, I asked for my wife's room number and then couldn't think of my sister's name. I feel like the…"
"Thank you so much, M Adams. I hadn't thought of that and thank you for remembering her profession and thinking of how much she touched the lives of others. Honestly, that's a blessing to me. I don't think I would…"
"M Adams, I was touched by you writing that it helps when people say they miss your husband. I have never heard anyone say that about my wife. My family acts as if she never existed. At least that's my perception. They…"
"Jerry, I find some comfort knowing that my wife will never have to go through this incredible pain and bottomless sense of loss. I would hate to leave her alone and as devastated as I've been for so long."
"Jerry, the thing that's impossible for me to accept is my wife was beside me, alive and happy, and in a moment she was gone. That's just beyond comprehension even now, over two years later. How can she be gone? The…"
"I had the most horrific nightmare last night. I have only dreamed of my wife a few times but this has really shaken me. We were at work and I was looking into Diane's face and trying to tell her I can't remember your name.…"
"Yesterday was awful. I have no idea why but I kept having memories of my wife's last moments as I knelt beside her on the sidewalk and tried to perform CPR. The image of the light fading from her eyes is overwhelming. Thank…"
"Last night my sister was talking to me about finally unpacking and fixing up the place where I live a little. I just listened. I don't want to unpack all the memories right now and there are two boxes marked "Christmas" I…"
Wife died September, 2014, suddenly and unexpectedly, at age 52. We both were licensed child and family therapists and had a practice for 25 years together. The world fell apart that day and the last two years have been the most difficult time in my life. Although I have been around death a great deal through hospice work and losing my mother and father, I could never imagine anything like this. It's simply beyond description.
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"Really missing my mom right now :/ she was the only one in my fd up family. And what hurts even more was I only really knew her for two weeks before she died cuz I got taken from her when I wasnt even two years old and when I turned 18 and had the…"
"Today is an especially rough day, can't really nail it down to one thing. So many things going through my head. I have had 2 weeks to my self to process everything that has happened in since my husband's diagnosis and passing.…"
"And same here. I have bad days and tolerable days. I am having a real hard time without my Mom right now. Life just does not make sense anymore. But I keep going on through the motions of living, hoping this deep sense of loss will ease…"
"Nancy, yes it sounds like there were a lot of similarities in our situations. I married late and so we would have celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary on August 16th of this year. Jack's birthday was 12/29/2017. Cancer took my…"
"Hello Nancy, I don't know how both you, and Cathy, can carry on as well as you have after losing someone you loved so much? It's unbelievable to me that your husband's doctor could be so inept as to never test his liver function,…"
"I have been struggling along trying to improve upon what I was left to deal with without my husbands unfailing support for four and half years. I still want to die. Everyday. And of course he would want for me to not have to suffer…"
"Hi Kim. We have a lot of similarities. Lost my husband to an aggressive cancer May 10th. We had his celebration of life May 19th and it was truly a celebration with music, stories, food, a bonfire. Just what he would've…"
"I don't think you are being an A hole. I just think maybe you've had more time to clearly think and grieve. I hope to get to the point where I can live my life without despair every waking moment as well. I appreciate…"
"Not trying to be an A-hole here folks but, C'mon waiting/wanting to die? My Andrea is gone almost 3 years and she is always on my mind. I have good days and bad days BUT I try to live whatever days I have left the way she would want me to. She…"