"I went to a family gathering for the 4th and was surprised with a birthday party. My sister died the day before my birthday so it was a heartfelt effort. I felt sick through the whole experience and I'm sure I didn't hide my…"
"It's been a while and I don't remember exactly how this works. It's coming up on 5 years that my wife collapsed and died in front of me. Yesterday I watched my 85-year-old sister die in agony. I thought she should…"
"A few days ago, our old car blew a head gasket on the freeway as I was on the way for a consultation with a doctor about skin cancer. I am a baby about it even though it's not life-threatening. Another of those times when I feel so…"
"It was when they sang "Stand By Me" that I turned it off. I never heard that song presented in that way and suddenly the words had profound meaning. Then I started thinking how much my wife would have loved watching the wedding…"
"Today was the Kentucky Derby and my wife loved it. On no other day was she interested in horse racing but on this Saturday, she would sit for hours and watch the story of the horses and be entranced. Lord, such a silly thing for such an…"
"There are times when it's just overwhelming and the pain is intense. Today, for no reason at all, I keep muttering "how could you just die?" If there had been a choice, I know she wouldn't have left me on my…"
"All the family went different directions tonight and left me to hand out candy to the kids. Unfortunately, they have a huge liquor cabinet. Year three and even Halloween pulls the rug out from under my feet."
Wife died September, 2014, suddenly and unexpectedly, at age 52. We both were licensed child and family therapists and had a practice for 25 years together. The world fell apart that day and the last two years have been the most difficult time in my life. Although I have been around death a great deal through hospice work and losing my mother and father, I could never imagine anything like this. It's simply beyond description.
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