"I hear it all the time you don’t know how lucky you were that your mother wasn’t sick and you didn’t have to take care of her I say to them lucky I was lucky that my mother died and I was not right by her side to tell her I love…"
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- About Me:
- I am 48 yr old who lives with her partner and 7 indoor cats, and 6 feral cats that we feed and house. I am very quiet, and it takes a bit for me to warm up.
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- My mother died with me brushing her hair back on the 29th of November. She had celebrated her 72nd birthday on the 18th of November. She had just been diagnosed with her 3rd bout of breast cancer and her 2nd bout of angiosarcoma (rare cancer brought to life by her radiation treatments the 1st time.)
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Talked to my Dad today and found out that my Mom used to call all the grandkids and sing Happy Birthday to them, not just for Bill and I. UGH....I called Bill's work number on the 7th and sang to him...didn't hear from him until yesterday...he said he really appreciated and that I sound just like Mom when I sang it. Now I have said I would keep up the tradition with the kids and with Bill. Small issue though.....who is gonna sing it to me?
Posted on December 19, 2012 at 1:56pm
Wish the holidays would go away
Carols, funny Christmas songs...all of it, everyone of them brings flashes from the past, as well as knowing those Christmas's that will never be. I am tired all of the time, the "why bothers" run things, the "who cares". The depression I already deal with is in a space that I have never really experienced before. Can't sleep, and I have flashes of her last moments with me, my screaming on the inside for her to keep…
ContinuePosted on December 16, 2012 at 1:00pm
She is gone and I am lost
My mother had spent the last 12 years of her life battling Breast cancer, and the last 2 years battling angiosarcoma as well as the after effects of a sub-arachnoid aneurysm. She went through I can't tell you how many rounds of chemo as well as radiation. She was a fighter, someone who told me that "cancer was her adventure" she never complained, she just went with whatever was going on. She was strong enough to admit…
ContinuePosted on December 15, 2012 at 5:31am
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Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"M, the problem is that our security blankets were ripped away.
Like you, sometimes I am glad to be sad. I feel like I am closer to my mom when I am crying. At least, her memory is fresher with me when I am in that zone.
I feel like the hard reality…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Theresa, millions, billions of people have lost their moms. Sometimes someone will tell me that they have lost their mom, too, but they were able to deal with it, and they wonder why I haven't dealt with it as well. This may sound like an…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Me too ...I was sitting marking a paper yesterday and suddenly realized that I can’t see or talk to my mother about this or anything else and the tears came. But I’m glad to think of her, in a way I can be glad to be sad sometimes.…"
"I sometimes will just be sitting down and I start to cry because I keep thinking I miss my mom so much my whole world is just not the same I think that I’ve become a different person it will be four years and I still cry
I can’t put into…"
M Adams commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Definitely a colder world now. I like the image of the security blanket — like, as we go forward, we will always keep it but eventually may be able to wash it, fold it nicely, and put it in some place of honour close at hand but without…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"The world just became a colder place when my mom died. I just remember feeling like all was right with the world when my mom was in the next room. "
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"It is such a traumatic event, especially when you have had a wonderful Mom. It is so hard knowing she is gone. Knowing this is permanent. There is no one that can fill the void she left. My brother was close to Mom, but he…"
Amy replied to Amy's discussion How do I get unstuck?"I am not a believer and nor was he. We covered the bases just incase though. We were both raised Catholic. That is all besides the point though. "
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"While I never forget that my mom is gone, for some reason it just hits me over the head sometimes. Just out of the blue I'll be like, "Mom is gone." It's horrible. It's ever present. And the thing is that it is always with…"
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"My Mom also. I could always talk to her about anything & knew she was someone I could totally trust. I am constantly thinking of something I want to share with her & then I remember she is gone. I loved spending time with…"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"There is no doubt that it is anxiety. In fact, I think we are experiencing fight or flight. Since birth my mom had been my security blanket."
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"It is still numbing to think my Mom is gone & I can't talk to her or see her again. I lost part of me when she passed. Someone said the restless feelings I have are really anxiety. Daily crying is part of my life. …"
Brett Bowman commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"I would rather cry on the outside than on the inside. Crying on the outside is a release. I am really tired of being sad. I'm also tired of being scared. Life without my mom still seems like a scary proposition. All we can do is to continue to…"
Brett Bowman replied to Lynn Fisher's discussion New here in the group I miss my Mom!"You and I experienced something very similar. You are not an anonymous person who lost her mother. I just wish that I knew the words that would make it all better. I don't. I'm still trying to figure it out for myself. All I know is that…"
Lynn Fisher replied to Lynn Fisher's discussion New here in the group I miss my Mom!"Thank you so much for your kind words. It means a lot to me that you would take the time to bring me some peace, which you have."
Sue Toler commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"So glad you have your daughter. I was so close to my Dad & so many wonderful memories of time I spent with him. It has been over four months since I lost my Mom. I try to stay busy, but still have a lot of grief…"
Avi commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!"Hi All,
Hope everybody doing good. My daughter is growing up and keeps me busy but any day I sit and feel guilty of not serving my mother, I feel like crying. She should have enjoyed so much with her grand daughter but destiny had some other…"
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Hi Anne, hope you had a good day yesterday mine was ok had a few melt downs. This is painful stuff isn't it not really sure how to go about fixing it either when I know the only thing that is going to make me better I am not going to get. My heart is bleeding and i am trying to stuff all these things in there to stop the bleeding but they keep falling out thats kind of how I feel. Really the only thing that keeps me going is knowing other people have done it and they have it way worse than me. I feel kind of bad yesterday I tried to talk on here couldn't do it left in the middle of a conversation but I was having a melt down couldn't even see the screen too many tears. Hope you have a good day praying for you -Tim
Hi Anne. I know today is a hard day for you, as it is for me as well. Christmas is not the same without our moms.Your mother sounds so much liked like my mother so I know what you are going through. I just today read your profile. My mom used to call and sing to each of us on our birthdays too. I'd call you and sing happy birthday to you :) We seem to have been going through much of the same stuff, the "why bothers" and "Who cares" and the depression and flashbacks. I hear a Christmas song and start crying. The flashbacks to her last day and the weeks before she was even diagnosed to the day I was finally able to go see her-I had been sick for a few weeks and was not allowed to go visit her as she had just finished radiation treatments and her immunity was low. After being sick 2 weeks I showed up to surprise her and when she saw me she acted like she had not seen me for years and kept saying "I love you so so much!' I flash back to that and wonder if she knew that something was wrong and she had the brain tumor that took her life just weeks later. So many coulda, woulda, shouldas go through my mind.
Thanks Anne, very sorry about your mom new to this chat rooms and things one of the nurses that helped me take care of my wife helped me get on this site but i really don't know how to chat or what to click on was trying to put the picture of my wife's favorite flower on my page but i must have done something wrong. so if i don't answer someone i'm not stuck up just don't know what i'm doing
sory abot yore loss yore mum sounded like my dad he woz the same a figter he had a lot of resperty promlems and heart failer still dont no whot he died of the postmortem 3 difrent reports say difrent thngs he had a stroke geting beter from tht but the resperty promlmes he had like of c o p d got a hold of him not loked fored to xmas this yr bean the 1st 1 with out him sory for yore loss