Copper "Charlie"
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I love to write - poetry, sci-fi, fantasy, sword & sorcery - anything of that nature. I have over half a dozen stories currently in progress. I've never been able to focus on just one to the exclusion of all else for very long. Since my husband's passing, I'm considering getting into archery, shooting, perhaps going to see a movie near my birthday, something we hadn't been able to do in years because of his surgery and cancer. I've got an entire house to get into order -- painting and working on replacing the floors is a project I look forward to. Perhaps if I can get into better shape, hiking and camping will return to my life. My favorite thing in all the world to do is dance. I haven't been physically able to dance in well over a decade or more. I miss it so very much. I'd like to have the ability to have outdoor fires and who knows, perhaps get back to throwing clay and making pottery.

But no matter what I do...it feels as though it will be so empty without him. I will be so empty without him. I loved him so much!

Update...I haven't done not one of those things I listed in the 1st paragraph. I have no desire to even try them anymore. I feel so very alone.
About my Loss:
On July 13, 2015, my mother passed away after a sudden, unexpected hospitalization and complication with pancreatitis. She was in agony for 9 days before they figured out the pancreas had ruptured. My daughter stayed with her the first couple of nights, then I stayed with her the rest of the time, as things were so iffy. My father stayed during the day.

On August 13, 2015, my husband of 13 years had a sudden heart failure. Forty minutes after he started having symptoms, he was gone. He was my everything. My heart, my soulmate, my world. I miss him so very much. My heart is shattered.

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It's My Choice

I read a post on another site that made me think about something in a way that I forgot that I had already done with someone else.

When my husband died, I went to my therapist and among a few other questions, he asked me how I was doing.  I told him, of course, I was very upset, but I'd had a wonderful husband and a wonderful marriage.  He seemed a bit concerned, which I know he was thinking I was idolizing.  But, I told him yes, my husband and I had our ups and downs.  We had times…

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Posted on August 24, 2016 at 9:00pm

Mom...How Could You?!

You know...I trusted you, Mom.  I'm not sure why I didn't see it before, to be honest.  I don't understand how you could do that to your own son!  Your children.  How?  Why?

I remember you telling me not to tell your side of the family anything that went on with my brother.  Just to tell them that he's fine or I don't know.  I was like in 3rd grade when you did that. …

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Posted on August 20, 2016 at 6:20am — 2 Comments

I feel like 2 different people

Sometimes I look at the last few days or weeks and see separate, distinctive beliefs, feelings, wants, etc. Like having different personalities. No, I'm not schizophrenic.



One part of me wails and screams and sobs uncontrollably for my husband because I am so empty without him. There is no peace in that part of me. Another part has an unwavering faith. A wordless knowledge and complete understanding of all the reasons why, how, where, what... There is faith and peace within this part… Continue

Posted on August 20, 2016 at 12:19am

Open Wounds & Lemon Juice

Hi.  When I was 4, I lost my grandfather to cancer.  He'd worked the coal mines of the Kentucky mountains back before they had anything to protect their breathing.  He had black lung and was a chain smoker.  There were at least 2 others in my family who died the same way.  I remember him lying in bed and the room being dark and he would ask me to get him things, small things like a box of tissues, and when I would come back, he would call me his Little Nurse.  His nickname for me was Little…

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Posted on October 7, 2015 at 2:36am

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At 7:49pm on October 5, 2015, Tildyc said…
Hi- I'm so so sorry for your multiple heartbreaks. This life we have to walk is total BS now. From happiness and security to darkness and paralyzing fear of the rest of your my life.

I do hunt though. My Mark was a experienced, avid and extremely successful hunter. He had his own Commercial fishing boa and was a true Alaskan. He was amazing.

I have hunted throughout my life having been born and raised Alaskan but, not like he did. Now I've inherited his rifles and hunting gear. So I've been hitting it hard. 1- in tribute to him and 2- I don't have him filling out freezer anymore.

I have now been able to begin to understand his passion for hunting. It makes me sad yet comforts me at the same time. So ya- just wanted to share that aspect with you. Take care- and I wish you peace.
 
 
 

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