Thank you for placing the link to your film. Admittedly it brought me to tears. And you are right. It is regret for all the things I should have said or might have said or all the things I still wanted time to be able to say. Just to keep the connection going. Instead all I feel is loss. And I suffer still to this day..... soon to be 9 years later.
I want to leave this earth and don't have the courage (as of yet) to take the plunge. Surely not something you want to hear having a father who took his own life. But I am suffering greatly and living without the man who made my heart beat I have coped with the pain the best I can.
I used to be on this website day in and out pretty much. It was a lifeline for me. Talked with many people who suffered the same as me losing a spouse. I could bet that those of us who were here then for quite awhile still would be thrilled to leave earth. Sometimes the pain is just so much to bear. Now I stay to myself and try not to have to burden others with my inability to manage very well.
I function better but I am not "living". Those are two separate and distinct things. But I do wish there was just more "time" that I would have had because I was so in tune with his world. More time.......and now I wait as I have to believe that the cord between us is still there, just invisible.......
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Thank you for placing the link to your film. Admittedly it brought me to tears. And you are right. It is regret for all the things I should have said or might have said or all the things I still wanted time to be able to say. Just to keep the connection going. Instead all I feel is loss. And I suffer still to this day..... soon to be 9 years later.
I want to leave this earth and don't have the courage (as of yet) to take the plunge. Surely not something you want to hear having a father who took his own life. But I am suffering greatly and living without the man who made my heart beat I have coped with the pain the best I can.
I used to be on this website day in and out pretty much. It was a lifeline for me. Talked with many people who suffered the same as me losing a spouse. I could bet that those of us who were here then for quite awhile still would be thrilled to leave earth. Sometimes the pain is just so much to bear. Now I stay to myself and try not to have to burden others with my inability to manage very well.
I function better but I am not "living". Those are two separate and distinct things. But I do wish there was just more "time" that I would have had because I was so in tune with his world. More time.......and now I wait as I have to believe that the cord between us is still there, just invisible.......
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