I can't believe that on January 27th, my beautiful mother will have been gone a year! It seems like forever ago since I saw and spoken with her, yet it feels like it just happened! I have been completely numb and dead inside in 2012 and been in a total fog..when will I ever feel alive again? I know I will never be over her but I want acceptance & forgiveness of myself and I don't know how to achieve that!

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Comment by James D on January 3, 2013 at 5:31pm

We will, one way or another. I'm sure your mom wants you to forgive yourself and move forward. :) 

Comment by dream moon JO B on January 1, 2013 at 3:40pm

sorry abot yore mum 2 jennifer 2012 felt like a horbel rollcoaster ride tht i cud not get off the same for evry 1 else

Comment by Jennifer Blackwood on January 1, 2013 at 1:26am

I'm so sorry about your dad!!!! 2012 truly sucked!! I hope this year is much better for us all, and we will have some self-healing!!

Comment by dream moon JO B on December 31, 2012 at 5:06pm

yes i undersatand how u feal the last time i saw my da d alibe woz march the 2nd last words on this horbel ward i wont go in to details a lot of people no he got s@@t treatment on this ward a resperty ward il sea u tomrowo dad love u dad but the 3rd of march we got the telgram befor 2am at the door by the time me and mum got thr in the taxi well by the time we got the taxi we got thr 10 mints to late my dad passt way at 220 am on sataday the 3rd of march do i feal guilty yes coz i left him thr if id not bean having a go at the lazy nurse i wud hav spent more tim with him i felt guilty tht i left him thr to die if id new this woz going to hapen i wud if stopet thr all day and night but i had to get back to atke my own meds wish i feal guilty abot id rather of dun with out  and the post mortem 3 difrent reports still dont no whot he had ill just say resperty dese wish runs in the family he had beter care in the funrall home and so did we wen i went to sea him 2 times to say good by and kiset him good by im pleased my mum told me he wud be stone cold coz i thnk if she didnt i w ud of dropet ded my self with shock his funrall all i can say i woz ther but like in a zobie transe i did not wont any body geting close to me all i n o is i hate 2012 it took my dad away and my surfate uncle bill not my real uncle but he felt like a uncle whot made it worse he died on the same ward my dad died on and his dorter did the same as me at her dads funrall i no uncle bill woz 95 and his dorter woz 65 but she hates tht ward like me it killed her dad to hope i havent bean going on to  mush love jo

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