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You know what's hard about this? I'm driving through my neighborhood and I see all the houses decked out. I see the tree inside and sometimes the people. Families enjoying the season.
Not me though. And I used to love this time of year. Even through all the Christmas's I was a single mom and lonely. I still got it together for my kids and that made it good for me.
But now I just look at these other people and it makes me feel incredibly alone and sad.
Why do I always end up alone??? I'm getting sick of this. Either divorce or the death of my beautiful Rocky. It always ends up with someone leaving me alone. It's not Rocky's fault I know. I just wish this wasn't the pattern of my life. I wish it had just been me who died instead of him. He knew how to move on. He knew lots of people, had lots of friends..and knew how make them. I know none of this.
When I had my kids living with me it wasn't so bad. But they are grown and live 4 hours away. I get to see them maybe 2 or 3 times a year. I haven't seen my son in years.
It's just me and my dog and my birds. And soon it will just be me and the birds. Or maybe I will rehome my birds and then it will just be me. Then I won't have any reason to stick around