August 2014 Blog Posts (43)

Why (CAUTION) Dont read if you can't handle my truth.

Why, why, why? Why you? Why me? Why anyone? Hell if I know. If I knew the answer to that, WOW. I get asked that question so many times, and all I can say is I don't know. When I get frustrated with the whole thing I ask myself Why not me? Why not you? What the heck do I know? Because I'm a 2 time loser I should know the answer to that. I've lost many family, and close friends over the years, and it never gets any easier. I do however get through it. How you ask? I have no idea. I guess when…

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Added by anne on August 31, 2014 at 8:08pm — 6 Comments

"Dear, do other people cherish and love each other like we do? Are they really like us?"

500 year old love letter found buried with Korean mummy Posted by TANN ArchaeoHeritage, Archaeology, Asia, Breakingnews, South East Asia, South Korea 8:00 P
A poetic love letter written by a mourning Korean wife that was found beside the mummified body of the woman's husband has grabbed the limelight many a time…
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Added by Blue Swan on August 27, 2014 at 2:10pm — No Comments

Missing you, my world, even after almost 3 years

I have not been on this site in a while. When people tell you "time will heal everything", "you have your memories", "it gets better with time", well, they mean well, but it does not! It has been 32 months since I lost my husband of three years to a senseless murder in front of me. I wished when it happen that the coward would have taken me as well and I still do. Two weeks after my husband was taken from me, I lost my Dad as well and have not even had a chance to grieve him. I hate may life, I… Continue

Added by Elizabeth Ann Collins on August 27, 2014 at 1:24pm — No Comments

Empty Arms

I just wanted to be able to hold you just once more. The kiss in the coffin is as close as I got. I think of you contantly and wonder if I am just dead too. I feel like a zombie walking amongest the living trying to put on a "normal" appearance. I hardly had time to process your cancer diagnosis and suddenly I was empty without you. The kids seem to be adjusting in their own way. I just feel the void of you everywhere.

Added by Linda K on August 27, 2014 at 8:12am — No Comments

everyday

everyday is the same, same pain, same tears, same emptiness, same heart break, how can I go on without you, how does everyone else go on knowing you went away. I ask you every night why you left me, but you never answer me. I sit and watch the butterflys  sitting on your beautiful butterfly bush. and I cry.  I ask you to tell me what you want me to do, again no answer,theres no such thing as a good day any more. everyday is to  filled with pain. filled with tears, sleepless nights, needing…

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Added by kim on August 27, 2014 at 7:26am — No Comments

Scatter brained

I just told someone on here I would try a blog. I didn't even remember I had posted on my blog before. My brain is in a fog. I've been told by a friend who lost her young son she went through the same thing and eventually it will clear. Yesterday I checked my purse to make sure I had a check in my wallet and found the little bag of cat treats in it that I had meant to put in the cabinet. It would be funny if it wasn't so sad. I'm usually a Type A, get things done immediately,very efficient type… Continue

Added by Marty on August 26, 2014 at 9:54pm — No Comments

company

yesterday we had a lot of company, it was kinda nice, till one asked, hows shawn. I heart fell. I went into the house and cryed. I guess these days will come but I just cant deal with it. one of shawns friends next door got married last night,  it really was a hard night for me and cryed myself to sleep. god it hurts, I miss him so much, I just want to be with him, im so ready to go please.

Added by kim on August 24, 2014 at 10:23am — No Comments

a baking day again

I baked  mini peach pies the other day, today I baked dark fudge chocolate cup cakes with butter cream iceing. my husband ken said  wow nice  who are you baking all that for, with out even thinking I said, for shawn, he will love this. when I realized what I had said my heart dropped. shawn loves my baking,  dear god I miss my baby so much, I love him  more then life.  trying so hard to keep busy but its not working, every thing I do and did  is for shawn,  I felt shawn touch my arm today, I…

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Added by kim on August 22, 2014 at 2:27pm — No Comments

Feeling so empty inside without her

 Thanks for that bluebird .Those sentimental movies always seem to get to me, they sneak up on me every time lol. I guess I just never allowed myself a chance to stop and realize that. And I do apologize for not visiting as frequently as I would like to. I walk around 'trying' to think positive and yet my wife may think I'm having too much fun without her. But just for your information i, and everyone here, I really do read & pay attention to emails from others here. And I may be "one of…

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Added by Bill Daniels on August 21, 2014 at 10:42pm — No Comments

alone today

today my husband went to help a friend at 3 this morning, being all alone hurts. I cryed all morning, then I went to see my son, talking to him and crying my heart out I feel hes there hearing what im saying. I water his floers and wipe off his stone, like I do everyday. how can my heart keep breaking, I know theres nothing left. I see people that look like him and it takes everything I have not to run and hug them, instead I just cry. the phone never rings any more, friends never come over,…

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Added by kim on August 21, 2014 at 10:24am — No Comments

I have just lost it

I think I just blew a fuse. I generally do my best to be positive, but today I read a post that said that God picks and chooses who lives and who dies.

specifically it said that God chooses children to die so that he has younger angels in heaven. That's such crap. I'm so upset I can barely type. Why would a person post poetry like that? How can writings such as that be of any comfort? Obviously the person who wrote that poem knows nothing of which they write. I understand the need to…

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Added by anne on August 20, 2014 at 6:24pm — 3 Comments

THIS PAINFUL JOURNEY ALONE.

I'm only 2 months into my greif.  And I don't see how it's supposse to get better.  I hurt all the time.  I'm still in the denial stage.  I truly don't feel as though my daughter is really gone.  She was my only child.  She was killed in an auto accident.  She was the only beauty in my life.  I was so proud of her.  She graduate college with a bachelors degree in education.  She was all I had; I'm not married and my "little family" is no more.  I will never hear the patter of little feet…

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Added by Rachel on August 20, 2014 at 3:14pm — 1 Comment

heart beats

I pray  my heart beat would stop. then I could take my sons hand and go with him, to hold him and never let him go. to see my mom again after 33 years, I would hold them so tight . I could smile and laugh once more, if I could just be happy again. I feel it will never happen. please shawn answer my questions, hear my crys.  I need you shawn, I want so bad for you to come to my dreams, I have not had a dream since you went away, soon it will be 10 months,  we have never been apart that long…

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Added by kim on August 19, 2014 at 3:35pm — 2 Comments

feeling empty

 I think of my mother everyday and wonder why god took her and not some evil person. She was not just my mother but she was my best friend.now my life seems empty and without meaning.they say in time it will get better but I dont think so. My heart is broken and no one can mend it.

Added by Dawn M. Coffman on August 19, 2014 at 12:09pm — No Comments

empty days and nights

I forget what its like to feel anymore. I have no energy to do any thing out side the house. I keep asking to go with shawn, there nothing here, my life is over . I want so bad to hear the word  MOM  I need to hear it, how can I go on and never hear it again. I don't know in my heart if he hears me everyday, crying , telling him I love him, I need him, I cant go on with out him. please let me hear his voice again, I cant do this, the pain is so over whelming, unbearable, I want to hug him,…

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Added by kim on August 18, 2014 at 12:08pm — 1 Comment

book submissions

I am caught up and ready to accept new submissions. If you have a story of loss; especially recovery after that loss, whether it's a pet, a relationship or a loved one. I ask that you have the courage to share it so that others can find comfort and healing in knowing they are not alone. Please send submissions to dreama.nana2@gmail.com subject line "book submission". Your story will be published along with others and Hearts United... we will gather our strength.

Added by Dreama on August 17, 2014 at 10:12am — No Comments

Days Gone By: Remembering your losses

I received a very well meaning e-mail about coping with grief.  In part in read:

“If you find there’s an emotional connection to some loss,” says Dr. Wright, “then maybe you have not really processed it. Maybe it’s still affecting your life in some way.”

 

Dr. Wright suggests that you need to come to the point at which you can say of each loss, “Yes, that happened to me, but now I’m going on with my life,” compared to “Boy, that happened to me, and it still…

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Added by Lise M. on August 16, 2014 at 8:22pm — No Comments

do not spam

we dont nead spam on hear it is a grief site it is 

not 2 spam us 

Added by dream moon JO B on August 16, 2014 at 2:48pm — No Comments

Feeling so empty inside

I never thought I'd ever feel so empty in my life yet even when doing something so out-of-character . I sometimes even try gorging myself full of junk food late at night and watching horror movies, when I'm not even hungry nor even interested in the movie I still can't fill that void. It's like whatever I do isn't going to change the world so why should I bother, this is just my inner feelings so don't worry-I still respect others-just to let everyone know my wife would still find a way to…

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Added by Bill Daniels on August 15, 2014 at 9:30pm — 1 Comment

Sentimental movies

I need to discipline myself from watching certain movies , like the movie "What dreams may come" with Robin Williams , which reminds me how I'm either expecting my wife to come around the corner or it reminds me to stay away from female & couples. I do this not out of being mean but to keep from getting burned again, although when I lost my wife it was well known that it wasn't her fault-she expired from is well known as the 'drinking disease'. And I know I am…

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Added by Bill Daniels on August 14, 2014 at 10:30pm — 2 Comments

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