I lost my mother June, 26 2011. If it wasn't for the wonderful, amazing people I have bonded with on this site...I would be such a mess. I would like to give you something to think about - if you have not read anything by George Anderson...please go to his website and facebook. Your mother is not "dead" - horrible word. Your beautiful mother has transitioned to a very beautiful place. There are many answers out there if you want to seek them out. I was just an ordinary daughter who lost her best friend and mother...I am now a different person than I was when my mother passed. A BETTER person because I chose to open the door to the possibilities. Do a cry and feel that pain in my heart and lump in my throat every day - yet bet I do. I miss my mom. Your mother needs for you to tell her it is OK for her to be where she is and you need to make her proud until your day comes and you have earned to transition into the next world. Honor her with who you are and who you become. I promise you - you mother is in good company. She will come to you when you are free of anger and your pain is not so overwhelming. In time she will. I am telling you all of these things because I experienced them myself. - Sue
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"Wise words in response to Elynn, Joe. And Ellyn, I have the same routine and feelings. I scream along working to reestablish myself in a new location which has taken me the last three years out of the seven plus that he has been gone. Then I keep…"