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Jason
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- Newburgh, NY
- United States
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Disenfranchised grief
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I miss my Mom!
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Traumatic, Sudden Loss
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Lost My Spouse...
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Jason's Discussions
What do you do for fun? Or a hobby?
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My wife died 4 weeks ago.And while I am not there yet and may not be for some time, or ever, I am curious to know if anyone has found enjoyment in their lives again.Or at least a pleasant way to pass…Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by Felicia Mar 28, 2016.
I want to punch people who say "I wish I knew her better."
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If you gave a crap you would have known her better.You had the opportunity. You just didn't think she was worth your time. Go f**k yourselves.She was my everything and she was worth all of my time.Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by dream moon JO B Mar 26, 2016.
My wife's Memorial Mass was yesterday
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It was nice to see so many people turn out. People we hadn't seen in 20 years. People we had written off. And our friends who we didn't realize were such good friends. It was a stressful day and a…Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by bluebird Mar 14, 2016.
Today is my wife's Memorial Mass
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I want to speak. To get up there and tell everybody how perfect she was.To share the story of our lives.But not only does this church her mother chose frown on eulogies, I don't know if I can hold it…Continue
Started this discussion. Last reply by Sam Mar 12, 2016.
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- About Me:
- 44 y.o. widower
Father of twins
- About my Loss:
- Wife and lover of 26 years, 1 month, from our first dance together to her last.
We were high school sweethearts.
I've never been without her by my side.
Jason's Blog
More tired, more grief
It seems like I have not been sleeping well. I am physically exhausted but cannot fall asleep. The nights and the mornings are the worst.
Throughout the day now I breakdown more often in tears but I do recover faster.
I am sad and angry all of the time.
I wish she hadn't died.
Throughout the day now I breakdown more often in tears but I do recover faster.
I am sad and angry all of the time.
I wish she hadn't died.
Posted on March 23, 2016 at 7:23am — 1 Comment
The sad and the guilt
The sad and the guilt are hitting me hard last night and today.
I am so sad she is not alive.
I feel guilty that I could not save her.
She was my wife. She was my responsibility.
I should have taken better care of her.
I am so sad she is not alive.
I feel guilty that I could not save her.
She was my wife. She was my responsibility.
I should have taken better care of her.
Posted on March 20, 2016 at 7:47am
Listening to music
Hadn't been able to listen to music until tonight.
It didn't destroy me the way I thought it would.
The memories come flooding back but I didn't break down like I thought I would.
Am I in shock?
Am I numb?
Is something wrong with me?
Or is this part of the grief.
My heart feels like it has a chunk missing now. But it no longer feels like there is a knife sticking out of it.
It didn't destroy me the way I thought it would.
The memories come flooding back but I didn't break down like I thought I would.
Am I in shock?
Am I numb?
Is something wrong with me?
Or is this part of the grief.
My heart feels like it has a chunk missing now. But it no longer feels like there is a knife sticking out of it.
Posted on March 18, 2016 at 12:50am — 2 Comments
Day 20
Well, it happened. After only 20 days both kids are sick. Great. They weren't letting me get any sleep before. Now I'm up half the night with sick kids.
I don't know if I have the stamina. I am so tired.
I am having problems accepting what has happened. I imagine the kids are too.
What a living nightmare.
I don't know if I have the stamina. I am so tired.
I am having problems accepting what has happened. I imagine the kids are too.
What a living nightmare.
Posted on March 17, 2016 at 1:26am
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Kids happy and healthy.
1 year has passed since my wife died.
Just this week, I realized I may have accepted it. It happened. I cannot fix it. I have to live. For me. For my kids. I may even be happy one day.
Jason,
How are you doing? Haven't heard from you for awhile. How about posting an update for everyone. Mel