"My heart hurts EVERYDAY...ESPECIALLY times like now?When YET ANOTHER DEATH ANNIVERSARY is coming up...NINE DAYS after my birthday!I'll be glad when I'm no longer here!Or those involved FINALLY get what they deserve!"
I'm 14 going on 15. I am overly sensitive and have never handled greif well. I think all the loss I've dealt with lately is finally manifesting itself. My aunt Vallery died a month ago and my pet bird about six weeks ago. I have also suffered from deppression since the age of ten.
About my Loss:
I'm not sure why but I feel terrible that Michael jackson died. I have literally cried every night since he died. I never met him but I grew up listening to his music. It felt like I knew him, because I could relate to him. I was picked on for most of my childhood and have emotional scars. It's just he was so young, the average life expectancy is 76 years in the USA. It just seems like he had a lot of life left to live. I well up when I hear his music and when I think about how cruel and judgmental people were to him. It is also saddening to think he had such a torchered life. I hope they find the doctors that killed him, and that they pay for what they have done. I truly beleive the world is now a lesser place.
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I try to offer comfort and support to others who are suffering or un-happy , but no I am not a service provider
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Hi Caitlin - was wondering how you are? I'm really sorry you had such a terrible childhood and hope that life is better for you now. There are some cruel people out there who are just too ignorant to make an effort with other people, so they bully them. Don't worry, there are some lovely people out there too and hope you meet some very, very soon.
Take care sweetie
Welcome to the community. I was hoping someone would start a Michael Jackson group. I grew up listening to his music. I am 50 as well and was shocked by his untimely death. Yes, he seems to have been so tortured. (((((hugs)))))
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I feel bad about your anniversary. It really hit me hard to read your words about how you cried that hard. I can't come up with anything to say, but I get it.
I am at 6 1/2 years. 6 1/2 lost years. "