Angela renteria
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Angela renteria replied to Valentina Jolley's discussion Widow and childless in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Valentina , I am sorry to hear of the passing of your husband. It's very inconsiderate for people to say something like that. I have been told the same but I have no intention of "finding someone else" . This is a wonderful site that…"
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Angela renteria replied to Kevin Bailey's discussion Move on? in the group Lost My Spouse...
"It is very difficult to be without your soul mate. I have friends but it seems they don't want to hear me talk about him. It makes them uncomfortable and they change the subject either by saying oh you will see him again or they will begin to…"
Mar 9
Angela renteria replied to Maxey's discussion Searching in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I am sorry for your loss as well."
Feb 9
Angela renteria commented on Brenda Ann's group Has your faith been tested or lost with the death of your loved one?
"I still believe that God exists and I also believe in heaven and hell. I was raised Pentecostal. I use to believe that if I had unwavering Faith God would answer my prayer most especially if it were a life or death situation. I believed if God saw…"
Jan 15
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Has your faith been tested or lost with the death of your loved one?

This group was started because many are hurting so bad that their faith has been effected.  This is a place you can vent or even ask questions that brother you. Can the Bible or God help you through your grief?  Who is the cause of death? See More
Jan 15
Angela renteria replied to ShingingLight1967's discussion People can be so heartless sometimes in the group You're too young to be a widow
"Hello shinning light 1967, it is a horrible place to be . No matter what age looking your spouse is awful. Though being younger in my opinion is a rough spot because what are you to do when you could possibly live 30 years or more without your…"
Oct 16, 2016
Angela renteria replied to Lisa eckhardt's discussion Lost my husband way to soon. in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi, Lisa. If it's been three months then you most likely lost your husband around the same time I lost mine. It's very painful and I find my self calling his number even though I know he will never answer. Last weekend my kids were at a…"
Oct 10, 2016
Angela renteria joined Diana, Grief Counselor's group
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I love my Dad.

For everyone that has lost their Dad.
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Angela renteria replied to Maxey's discussion Denial in the group Lost My Spouse...
"Hi Barbara, yes I understand because I did the same things. Up in till three days before my husband passed I truly believe God would save him. I thought now way would God allow him to die so early when he had began turning his life around and…"
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Angela renteria replied to Maxey's discussion Slipping Backward
"Hi Ruthie , sorry for your loss. I too have had some well meaning Christian friends tell me we are all like family in heaven and that there is no marriage. We all love each other as sister and brothers. That brothers me too. I love my husband with…"
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Multiple Losses Group

I am creating this site for the many of us who have suffered several losses. I lost my mom, dad, grandma(2nd mom), grandpa, my beloved dog and divorce.Many of us have lost more than one person or event.Come share!See More
Sep 5, 2016
Angela renteria joined kimberly rowe's group
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mY sOuLmAtE, mY bEsTfRiEnD,mY sUpErMaN,mY eVeRyThInG

this is ment for the people who have lost the closest thing to them it doesnt matter if its a person or an animal it's stilla lost and they all hurt
Aug 27, 2016
Alice Thompson commented on Angela renteria's blog post Missing him.
"Hi Angela and Jennifer, I also ask these questions. Personally I have found answers to them and my faith in God is stronger now, but more individual, perhaps. I don't find it easy to go to church anymore, in fact I avoid it altogether. But I…"
Aug 16, 2016
Jennifer Walde commented on Angela renteria's blog post Missing him.
"I understand how your relationship with God changed, because I feel the same way. My first and only child was born not breathing. She was revived, and received testing. The same day she was born we were told she would soon die. She beat the odds and…"
Aug 16, 2016
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Missing him.

Ever since my husband died I have become a little indifferent in my belief in God . I hate to say it , I fear thinking it. I still believe in God , I still believe there is nothing that God cannot do . I just do not have blind Faith anymore. I had that blind unrelenting Faith that God would save my husband or at least help him to live long enough to get a transplant. That never happened and I watched him die. I have a real hard time believing that his death was part of a great plan . My husband…See More
Aug 16, 2016
Angela renteria replied to Maxey's discussion Filling the Days in the group Lost My Spouse...
"I know what you mean by making people uncomfortable. I can just mention Danny like saying we used to do this or he loved that and my best friend seems to get antsy like she doesn't want to hear it. So I don't say much . I feel like…"
Aug 16, 2016

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About Me:
I just turned 38 I am a mother of 4 . My husband recently died on June 18th of this year.
About my Loss:
My husband and I were together 17 years and losing him has been the worst thing in my life. I am not sure I can continue to go on with out him.I still can't come to terms that he is gone even though I was at the hospital and at his bedside when he passed.I hate this and I feel like we were cheated of a life together. I find myself wanting die with him but feeling guilty of feeling that way because I have have 4 young Children. I do want to see them grow up and I love them very much. The thing is its been six weeks and it seems like it's been forever.I can't imagine years of being without him.some people have said to me that well God must have wanted him or he is in a beautiful place . I do believe he is but why so soon. We have a child who just turned 1 earlier this year and that means my baby will have no memory of his father.

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Missing him.

Ever since my husband died I have become a little indifferent in my belief in God . I hate to say it , I fear thinking it. I still believe in God , I still believe there is nothing that God cannot do . I just do not have blind Faith anymore. I had that blind unrelenting Faith that God would save my husband or at least help him to live long enough to get a transplant. That never happened and I watched him die. I have a real hard time believing that his death was part of a great plan . My…

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At 1:38pm on August 16, 2016, FLORA said…

Hi Angela, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know what you are going through. I lost the love of my like on February 15th of this year, we were together for 8-1/2 years, we were always together, we did everything together, and he too had struggled with alcohol for most of his adult life, and although he hadn't started to show physical signs of liver disease, the medical examiner stated that his opinion was he died from liver disease due to alcohol abuse and untreated diabetes, he passed away in his sleep. It was and has been the hardest and most horrible thing I have ever gone through. I still miss him so much and I would do anything to have just one more day, just to say all the things I didn't get the chance to say. It does get a little easier as the days go by, but I'll always think of him and he will always be in my heart. I wish you all the peace and comfort in the days to come.

At 9:50am on August 4, 2016, Mary said…
My heart goes out to you. I understand how you feel. I too feel the same. I lost my previous husband Neil 3 1/2 months ago and I still feel what you describe. My children are older 16, 21 and 26. But I too just want to go be with Neil. The pain physically and mentally and emotionally is too hard. You are in my prayers
 
 
 

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