Traumatic loss of an only child

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Traumatic loss of an only child

I started this group so that people who have lost their only child or the only child that remained, as in my case, could come together because I believe people that did have a child or children who now have none have special issues.

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Latest Activity: Dec 9, 2015

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my beautiful only child, my son 6 Replies

hi my name is kim, I lost my son noe 5 , I was taking him to the doctors and he left me in my van, I screamed and screamed for him to not leave me, it was his heart  he was only 40, I died that day…Continue

Started by kim. Last reply by Vicki Sep 18, 2014.

I just lost my only child, please help me. 6 Replies

3 weeks ago tomorrow, I am looking for any help I can get. i am lost

Started by Sandra LaBonte. Last reply by kim Jun 1, 2014.

My first panic attack 2 Replies

Last night and this morning I spent crying uncontrollably. I miss my daughter so much and I feel this terrible emptiness without her. I couldn't go to work.  I was able to take a shower and get…Continue

Started by Wendy. Last reply by Wendy Jan 19, 2012.

I lost my son on 6/26/2011

I lost my son on 6/26/201, he took his own life behind many factors, he thought he was a monster, he was far from that. He had everything going for him, he met this girl online who messed with mind…Continue

Started by Zena Escobedo-McQuade Nov 21, 2011.

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Comment by kim on July 11, 2014 at 6:34pm

first time since my son went away, I blew up at my sister and there kids, I have never been so mad, telling me to get on with life, it hurt so bad, I thought I would kill them, thank god  for this sight,  thank god for the friends ive made here, thank you for hearing my unbearable pain and knowing what im going through.    thank you     kim

Comment by kim on July 9, 2014 at 3:15pm

I wish my sisters were here to help me go through this pain, I feel so alone here. its like there afraid to come near me unless they want something. they say there busy with there kids and grandkids, that hurts so bad, im not asking for the day im asking for a little time to talk about shawn, to help me remember the good times, im having trouble remembering them, my head is just so full of that last day over and over. I know they don't know the pain im in but all they have to do is look at me, my eyes. see my tears everyday. my empty heart. it would be nice to hear my babys still here from them, to tell me they to love my shawn, but I have not heard that. to hear there here for me, have not heard that either. I went to see my son today like I do everyday, I asked him if he wants me to come with him please tell me and I will. this nightmare will never end, and I know I just cant keep going anymore, im so very tired, and dear god I need my son. I hurt so bad, my tears still flow, my heart still brakes. why why did he take my only child my beautiful son why? why did he leave me here?

Comment by kim on July 7, 2014 at 4:30am

sitting out side at 4 this morning, the birds were singing, and I was crying. just cant sleep anymore, sleeping pills are not working as good. I kust kept asking shawn to hold me. how much more can I take? 8 months of pure hell. why cant I forget that last day, to keep reliving it over and over, screaming  shawn don't leave me. its just getting to be to much, I need him, and I hope he needs me, I miss him and I hope he misses me. all I keep saying is shawn take me with you im so very tired .

Comment by kim on July 6, 2014 at 1:13pm

everyday is so full of tears, never sleeping and im so tired

Comment by Melissa T on July 4, 2014 at 11:14pm

Went half a mile down the road to see my nieces and nephews, along with there parents,  it's been 5 years since I'd seen most of them, after Kaitlin died I became the outcast, I guess my brothers and sisters thought it was contagious, or maybe I didn't need family after losing Kaitlin. It was great seeing all the kids who are now all adults, made me feel old! A little wierd seeing my siblings, came home before the fireworks at dark, missing my Kaitlin so much, just want to curl up and cry, think I will. It is what it is, doesn't mean I have to like it. Happy Fourth of July all!!

Comment by Connie K on July 4, 2014 at 9:01pm

I can't celebrate. I spent a relaxing afternoon at a friend's pool party and  It was great to just float and dream of seeing my son once more. Not too much talking required. now I am done. The neighbors are having a party, asking us to come over. Come see the fireworks. I just can't function. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to talk to anyone who doesn't just know that all that's on my mind are the years when I would watch those fireworks with Daniel. I miss you so much my sweet angel. I wonder what fireworks look like from heaven. I just want you here with me. I just want you back

Comment by kim on July 3, 2014 at 5:16pm

sitting here crying a lot today, I miss my shawn so much. I just want to feel him here with me.i wish I could scream till I lose my voice,. it hurts so bad. all I want is to be with him, how do i go on with this pain, day after day. night after night.when will he come to my dreams, my life of hell as just begun,  my tears will never stop. please shawn help me to forget that last day . I cant get it out of my head. take my hand and ill go with you, im so ready my beautiful son. I pray every night that you wont forget me, ill always be your mom,  ill never hear it again but in my heart  I know. please shawn come to my dreams call me mom one more time, I beg you please. take away my pain, my broken heart and my tears.  night god bless my shawn, I love you and miss you. more then life.    forever your mom

Comment by kim on June 30, 2014 at 9:43am

please shawn help me through this, I cant do it anymore. my shattered heart cant go on. I miss you and love you so much, ill take your hand in a heart beat and go with you. please only you can take this unbearable pain away. without you there is no living,   my baby I love you    mom

Comment by Connie K on June 27, 2014 at 4:29pm

Sending everyone here love and payers today

Comment by kim on June 27, 2014 at 12:59pm

thank you connie, I promise ill try,

 

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