it will be 4 years in September that Joe is gone.   Our 45th wedding anniversary is tomorrow.   I'm not even posting it on Facebook, because I don't think anyone cares.

I miss him so much.   Loneliness is terrible! !!!   I have one friend that I consider a "true friend.".   The others have become aquaintances......  Sad, but true!!!   

I know all of us are trying to stay busy, and call that "moving on with my life", but I think it is just a way to hide the pain.   At the end of the day, when I sit alone,  and Joe is not here, I realize how much i miss him.   Please, God, don't let me be so lonely.  

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5 years since my wife died suddenly of heart failure right in front of me.  The time since that day has been just awful and when I reached this anniversary, I just couldn't believe it.  All I think about is all the years ahead without her.  I sincerely hope you find some peace and relief from the pain because I cannot grasp just how anyone is supposed to live with this sort of profound loss and find meaning in their lives.

It is a tradgedy to lose a loved one. But it does get better. Not everyday will be the same some days burn to the core more than others. Find a hobby or volunteer or help someone basically find something to do to ease the monotony of the day. In time you will be so preoccupied with doing something you enjoy.
I too lost my husband of 25 years happily married. A part of me died too.. coming back from that was over a 3 year struggle. But know that it may not be that long for you.
I bought paint and started painting. It fills the day and is an outlet for my emotions.
I pray daily asking for guidance too.
I hope this helps..

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