When I was driving home from a doctors appointment this morning around 11 a.m. I saw something I have never seen in my life.  I was on a major highway a few miles from the airport, and saw a large pickup pulled off on the side of the road ahead.  The pickup truck was a large double cab, the type a lot of contractors like to drive.  The doors were open on the side opposite the road, and as got closer I saw man moving rapidly back and forth by the door.  A little closer and it was clear as day, the mans shorts were down around his knees and there was a second set of legs behind the door.  They were having sex.

Never in my life have I ever seen people putting on such a bizarre display in public.  The world I now inhabit since my wife died is something strange beyond recognition.  The end of times is near.  

So I laughed for a few seconds then immediately went into despair.  This was something I would have quickly texted Cheryl, and the loss of her hit me hard right then.  

I need to get to the point where I can laugh without sadness.  

I hope everyone had a better day than I.

Mark

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