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Thank you to everyone that has responded in some way to my blog and my posts. The interaction has helped.
It has not been enough for me though. As I have said in previous posts; I need, want, and deeply crave human interaction. And when I write three or for blog posts in a row that are read by few and not commented on, it just causes more feelings of isolation and loneliness.
So I am moving my online grief operations to the Alliance of Hope website. It is…Continue
Posted on May 26, 2015 at 9:04am — 3 Comments
Yesterday I said I was not going to dwell on the loss of my wife Cheryl, today I am, at least in this blog post.
It's another morning and I have been lying in bed for a few hours hoping to fall back asleep. But I have had no luck. My mind of course has been thinking of Cheryl. Of the more than 31 years we knew each other, and how we had so many experiences together that we could always share a private laugh. And now those memories are only mine. They feel like such a…Continue
Posted on May 25, 2015 at 8:30am
I am awake again, and have some anxiety. When thoughts that I know just lead to pain have been entering my head, I try to change the subject. Not having much luck right now, but I will continue doing it.
I need to start to prepare for a trip on Tuesday. Once again, I am going to attempt to return to work. I failed a few weeks ago when I tried. The physical and mental discomfort I felt while I waited at the gate for my delayed flight, led to a breakdown at the airport.…Continue
Posted on May 24, 2015 at 9:54am
Yesterday morning was difficult. I had another doctors appointment. I get anxious waiting in those little rooms that you get placed in while waiting your turn to see the doctor. My mind immediately went to missing Cheryl, she was a nurse, she was my comfort. And whenever I had some significant health issue she would accompany me and usually wait in the little rooms with me so it didn't seem like a prison cell. I almost lost it while waiting alone there. The doctor finally saw me,…Continue
Posted on May 23, 2015 at 8:00am — 1 Comment