I remember when the family got involved in care giving after so many times they were called to help but couldn´t care less, in fact most had a LOT to SAY. But little DOING. But roles reverse, don´t they? I kept doing and all their critique was just lesson learned to do more and talk less. Because talk is useless around people who swallowed the truth in their tiny small little worlds. THE SAME PEOPLE finelly getting involved was that mess multiplied into one bad choice after the other. But their attitude was A CONSTAND throughout. THey thought of me as one that DOES more than TALKS, and they ASSUMED I had SOMETHING TO HIDE. Well, nop. I was uninterested in talking, and doing a lot more that I don´t remember needing a boss and explaining cuts off from my precious time and added nothing good. Finally I gave them the part of my life that they couldn´t care less, but all of a sudden the greed for money and attention drove them quite prematurelly to think they COULD DO ALONE, when I fully knew that was not possible, but talking to them to keep as many involved in decisions as possible would make no sense, since they were so eager to fight the care out of my hands. Problem is they assumed that they would look into all I did and find their crap selves in my choices and there was NONE. But people looking for whatever I did wrong, just truly shows who they are. And what they´d be doing in my place. Just because I am an introvert until I choose wisely the degree and use of interactions, doesn´t mean they know much at all about the CMPUTER in my brain and how it operates. But in time they are getting to grasp how much more I have done and for so much less resources while also having a LIFE of MY OWN. And the more rude they get, simply, the less interactions and room in my life. So, they get from me only ABSENCE so their tracks and steps takes perhaps in less time to the mirror of themselves, yeah, take a deep dig inside their souls after they stop the whitch hunt. That hunt too is indeed inwards themselves. Trying to dig int me, oh man, it´s way deeper and accountability is full with God and justice. Not only that, I have also taken very proactive steps to not let their greed take them into the odd part of the brains where dispair there would not allow comon sense and stupid spendings and overall costs associated with their poor thinking. Poor thinking there comes from the lack of involvement in the care. They may learn but it´s not for me to decide their path towards some basic enlightment about life. They may never see the light deep down in their souls, but they won´t find echo in the darkness of mine because there isn´t a shady side of me at all. Never was and never will be. But that´s FOR ME TO DECIDE who is worth stepping into the light of my existence, to be around myself for longer one must address their own dark sides of their minds and come to the light so we may be a lot more EQUAL. In the meantime, you bet ya, I am moving on without the crap all togehter, I have my own craptometer and like to keep it very EMPTY because where I am going is always towards illuminating my soul further more and keep life in the BRIGHT SIDE, and to deal with crap, there must be something worth so much more than the worst in people I must deal in between here and there. That´s about as much crap as I wil ever care about to deal, and none of that will stick to me or get a hold. LIFE IS SIMPLE. Talk is CHEAP...I rather let others do the talk, I will talk when I have to. Others will learn in time if they care, if not that´s ok for me, will walk my own way and deal with them in the bare minimum necessary. Call this LIFE!

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